ive been walked on all my life.and there is no sign of stopping now.

[pogostyx]

i havent made a decent entry in this thing for a while now.
but, at the same time, i kind of dont want to- i kind of wanna give up.
i hate being trampled on.i just wish someone took me seriously.19 days.my vacation.
maybe this vacation will be a good thing. i doubt it though- whenever i visit home, its so depressing that i want to come back desperatly. like last year. so many bad memories haunt that damn house.
haunt me.
i dont know. maybe all this snow is making me feel this way. but i shouldnt blame it on the snow- i dont need a scape goat. i'll just balme it on my self- everyone seems to blame me anyway.
perpetual car wreck.
work is mundane.people are full of shit.love life= lonliness.im lost in the sea of people.
lost forever in my dirty bookshelf of dead dreams and lost memories. fuck all of it. i hate everything. fuck live journal.fuck comeback inn.fuck my family.fuck school. i want to give up- but giveing up is so damn easy.
and i guess a challenge is all i need. a challenge. but nothing is challenging me. im bored.
im weak.