all the kings horses and all the kings men... im fucked
so much agrivation, disapointment, sorrow... and the worse it yet to come. maybe i should give up- ive been thinking of giving up for sometime now- packing up and moving back home. but i hestiate. there is an unknown force keeping me here in depression. in hell.
but its strange- even when i lived in california i lived this way. in fear.so now what? stay here. in this doomed realtionship-
he told me he wish he never met me.
he told me that everytime i touch him its annoying.
he told me to leave him alone. yet, i still love him. i dosent he just break up with me then? im not breaking up with him till i absolutly have to.
he hurt me. now what?
most people would tell me to leave him. fuck, everyone has said that. but i dont care- i need to make it work. hes been with me for so long- through the lowest points of my life- and the highest. hes still here- i dont know for how long- but hes still here- and i fucking love him that cock sucking bastard- i love him!hes my nigel.
but its strange- even when i lived in california i lived this way. in fear.so now what? stay here. in this doomed realtionship-
he told me he wish he never met me.
he told me that everytime i touch him its annoying.
he told me to leave him alone. yet, i still love him. i dosent he just break up with me then? im not breaking up with him till i absolutly have to.
he hurt me. now what?
most people would tell me to leave him. fuck, everyone has said that. but i dont care- i need to make it work. hes been with me for so long- through the lowest points of my life- and the highest. hes still here- i dont know for how long- but hes still here- and i fucking love him that cock sucking bastard- i love him!hes my nigel.