my leg has fallen asleep
I'm slipping into what appears to be a major depression. I think it might have something to do with what's been going on with me as of late, though so I'm not to worried. I know that will change soon, it always does. part of me is scared that it might not be because of outside stimulus though. I mean if you look at it one way, nothing has changed...if you look at it another way everything has. All I know is I'm more often seized by this tightening pressure...it feels like a tearing a splitting a crushing in the center of my chest, usually brought on by thoughts that I would have normally, but recently they cause bouts of sobbing that I can't abide. So I'm self-medicating...which worked well for a week or two and now I think I'm just going crazy as well as being very very sad more often. I'm really scared.