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I've been quiet lately... depriving myself of expressing what i truly feel...
I've been masking myself with a happy front... Simply enjoying the last few moments with friends... Not knowing when I could come back and see those comforting faces...
I am scared... scared of what this new life has in store for me... Scared that I might not survive the cold new habitat that will shelter me for the next years... Scared that I might not endure the demands of my new career...
Scared that I might fail....
I am deeply sad... Sad that I'll be leaving the comforts of home and live alone... I dont wanna be lonely and alone... Sad that friends will no longer be physically there when you need them... Sad because I am simply leaving...
I have come to fully realize that I am indeed boarding a plane in a matter of hours, looking back at a multitude of great memories that my luggage cannot simply carry... This is it! As what they say...
But I will be back... Perhaps as a better me... And I will endure the tormenting sadness and the choking fear... I may shed some tear... but only once... And I will make it a good one...
See you soon my dear friends... See you soon...
I've been masking myself with a happy front... Simply enjoying the last few moments with friends... Not knowing when I could come back and see those comforting faces...
I am scared... scared of what this new life has in store for me... Scared that I might not survive the cold new habitat that will shelter me for the next years... Scared that I might not endure the demands of my new career...
Scared that I might fail....
I am deeply sad... Sad that I'll be leaving the comforts of home and live alone... I dont wanna be lonely and alone... Sad that friends will no longer be physically there when you need them... Sad because I am simply leaving...
I have come to fully realize that I am indeed boarding a plane in a matter of hours, looking back at a multitude of great memories that my luggage cannot simply carry... This is it! As what they say...
But I will be back... Perhaps as a better me... And I will endure the tormenting sadness and the choking fear... I may shed some tear... but only once... And I will make it a good one...
See you soon my dear friends... See you soon...