I hate waking up early.
Last night, I didn't go into work because my back hurt so badly, I could barely walk. My muscles had spasmed earlier in the day and it got progressively worse. I also got a bit of shocking news last night from Linda when we were laying in bed.
She admitted to me, that a few weeks after breaking up with me, she had slept with Crystal. Hence why she's all hung up on her and has been for a while, and this explains the awkwardness between them as of late.
...
Seeing as I was tired and stoned, I didn't react normally. I was calm, but I wasn't saying the nicest things. It hurt. It hurt a lot. She felt horrible for keeping it from me, and knew she had hurt me.
Then we had sex. WTF?! I'm not complaining. It was awesome. But every time I looked at her, I was reminded of how beautiful I think she is...I couldn't help it.
Now I wake up early this morning for work, my back muscles are stiff as hell...and while doing the dishes, I started crying. Linda came over to me to see bye before she left for her testing, and she saw that I was upset and hugged me. I told her I wish I hadn't known, because I really had no idea (and I hadn't)...'we'll talk about this later'.
It's just sex. That much I know. But there's something about fucking someone just weeks after your breakup with your partner of over three years...that feels icky. Wrong. Dirty.
*sigh*
She admitted to me, that a few weeks after breaking up with me, she had slept with Crystal. Hence why she's all hung up on her and has been for a while, and this explains the awkwardness between them as of late.
...
Seeing as I was tired and stoned, I didn't react normally. I was calm, but I wasn't saying the nicest things. It hurt. It hurt a lot. She felt horrible for keeping it from me, and knew she had hurt me.
Then we had sex. WTF?! I'm not complaining. It was awesome. But every time I looked at her, I was reminded of how beautiful I think she is...I couldn't help it.
Now I wake up early this morning for work, my back muscles are stiff as hell...and while doing the dishes, I started crying. Linda came over to me to see bye before she left for her testing, and she saw that I was upset and hugged me. I told her I wish I hadn't known, because I really had no idea (and I hadn't)...'we'll talk about this later'.
It's just sex. That much I know. But there's something about fucking someone just weeks after your breakup with your partner of over three years...that feels icky. Wrong. Dirty.
*sigh*