"all at once, the world can overwhelm me"
when i say i can't wait for him to leave i mean i can't live without him and it's going to kill me to see him go. i'm not mad at him... i'm mad at myself for not being good enough and i'm scared at the thought of losing him. i'm so scared because it seems like he's changing and he's one of the few people who've stuck with me even when i broke their heart and called them crying and yelled and fought... and we always found our way back to each other. he cares about me so much.... but i feel like he's drawing away from me. i'm certainly drawing away from him. that way it won't hurt as much. is he doing the same? i'm so scared...