"no one can get in the way of what i feel for you"
life's been feeling a little on the wacky side lately but i feel (hope) it's starting to plateau once again to wonderful normalcy.
i might lease a horse at the stable and i'm going to try katie's new horse today. i'm pretty sure once i start riding regularly again i will be so much more happy than i've been lately.
i've been finding time to do things i haven't done in a long time like write just for the sake writing and reading non-school related things and playing piano and singing at the top of my lungs. it's been nice.
demeo's class was completely wonderful today.
i feel almost normal and happy again, like i'm almost out of this spunk that's been following me around for the past two or three months. i just want to thank those of you who have *honestly* asked how i was or were there for me when i needed you and i'm sorry if i shut down when you asked me this or if i ever blew up at you. i'm sorry i've been fake to all of you for a few months. it's easier than being real.
i like hanging out with andy and ned and it sort of hurts me when people just make fun of them or ignore them or ignore me when i'm near them. they don't know them like i do. they are two of the most wonderful people i know and if people would get to know them they'd think so to. andy has stuck by me since freshmen year- even when i broke his heart or ignored him or pretended i didn't care or called him crying- he's been there for me. he's truly one of my best friends and he is so much more of a better person once you get to know him he knows me better than anyone else and he actually cares. ned is wonderfully funny (even though he's occasionally awkward)(okay well maybe he's always awkward). He's really a nice kid. if you would just give them a chance... i'm not saying you have to hang out with them or have them be your best friend but if you could at least give them a little respect because i know they're there for me even when some one you aren't. i'm also sorry i have to do this on livejournal but apparently i'm not good at making hints and i'd feel like a total douche for just rambling on like this.
oh btw i was eavesdropping in the library and apparently someone died. i'm not sure who because i wasn't really supposed to be in there and that's what some of the teachers thought it was.
well i'm going to go watch scrubs then go to the farm. thanks for tuning in.