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If I were a month, I would be:october/november or april
If I were a time of day, I would be: dawn or early morning
If I were a planet, I would be: earth. duh
If I were a sea animal, I would be: a sea cow or seal
If I were a direction, I would be: east
If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: a bed. because like mike said, thats where all the magic happens.
If I were a sin, I would be: none. i'd rather be something good.
If I were a historical figure, I would be: gandhi or somebody peaceful
If I were a stone, I would be: diamond.
If I were a tree, I would be: i dunno. an apple tree?
If I were a bird, I would be: something sweet and colorful. i don't know much about birds.
If I were a tool, I would be: a pen. if you want to think of that as a tool.
If I were a flower, I would be: i don't remember what they're called, but those ones that smell so good at easter.
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: a thunderstorm. i love them.
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: i really don't know how to answer that.
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a guitar.
If I were an animal, I would be: a panda. because they're so cute.
If I were a color, I would be: orange
If I were an emotion, I would be: love or happiness or internal peace.
If I were a vegetable, I would be: peas. nobody likes them.
If I were a sound, I would be: the sound of the ocean. seriously. its so peaceful.
If I were a car, I would be: a ford focus or an old bug because they're adorable.
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: whoever directed donnie darko.
If I were a book, I would be written by: elizabeth chandler.
If I were a place, I would be: a small town at the edge of the sea in ireland.
If I were a material, I would be: foam.
If I were a taste, I would be: pumpkin pie and or diet pepsi
If I were a scent, I would be: ocean air.
If I were a religion, I would be: buddhism. even though most people think of it as a philosophy.
If I were a word, I would be: fuck.
If I were an object I would be: a hot tub. just because i love them.
If I were a body part, I would be: eyes
If I were a facial expression, I would be: something stupid
If I were a subject in school, I would be: english or history
If I were a comic book character, I would be: i don't know anything about comic books.
If I were a shape, I would be: a trapezoid. they're funny looking.
im in a funny mood right now. i want shit to be peaceful at my house because everybodys fighting and i hate it. alyssas being a cunt right now and making my mom so sad and i hate that. i want my mom to be happy. i want her to have a boyfriend. ugh. two days ago i went to the eric clapton show with her and i wish she could have went with somebody special. she needs to get out and have friends.
i have my future planned out. i want to have kids and be the hockey mom who brings cookies to practice for all the little kids and i wanna drive a mini van and i wanna be the housewife who cooks and cleans and i wanna live in a bright house because my house now is SO dark and depressing. i wanna live near the ocean and i wanna have a dog and i wanna take my kids to the park and play with them. i want to be happy and i don't want any fighting. i want to have a boy and a girl. i want to have a boy first and name him stephan and he can be the big protective brother and then a girl named gabby or emma. i want to be a typical mom who gets involved with my kids school and be social and have friends. but i also want to be the cool mom who understands her kids and lets them have freedom. i want all of this with mike. i want to be the good loving wife to mike because i love him so much. i want to make him happy. i wanna be the kind of wife who makes dinner and has everybody sit at the table. i want to have a happy loving family with mike. i want to be a middle class family. i want to have money but not a lot. enough to have a nice bright house. it doesn't have to be big. i don't give two shits if its big but i want it to be bright and clean and i want to have a yard where i can plant things and play with my kids in the backyard. i want a mini van. i want enough money to get the things i need but also some things i want here and there. i want to have a typical middle class family with mike.
is that weird or wrong? to want all these things when i'm 14? i don't care about enjoying my teenage years. i wish time would move forward to where im out of college so i can have a family. to where im like 28. i want to have this all now but thats impossible and a little silly. i want this so much. i hate how my life is now. i want to get out of this. i wish i was older. so i could marry mike and have a little wedding by the ocean. i want to have a REAL family with rules. i want to raise my children in a totally different way then my mom has with me. i love my mom and everything and im so scared im going to lose her because shes so unhappy but this is no way to live. i want my life to change. i want to be older and raise a family right.
i dunno. i can't really explain how im feeling but thats the best i can. i know i'll probably grow out of it soon but i wish i could have all of that now. i know i want all of that just because of how my home life is now but also because i love mike and i want this with him. i dunno. im sorry if this doesn't make sense to anybody. i just needed to get it out. i was going to make it private but i don't care right now.
If I were a time of day, I would be: dawn or early morning
If I were a planet, I would be: earth. duh
If I were a sea animal, I would be: a sea cow or seal
If I were a direction, I would be: east
If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: a bed. because like mike said, thats where all the magic happens.
If I were a sin, I would be: none. i'd rather be something good.
If I were a historical figure, I would be: gandhi or somebody peaceful
If I were a stone, I would be: diamond.
If I were a tree, I would be: i dunno. an apple tree?
If I were a bird, I would be: something sweet and colorful. i don't know much about birds.
If I were a tool, I would be: a pen. if you want to think of that as a tool.
If I were a flower, I would be: i don't remember what they're called, but those ones that smell so good at easter.
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: a thunderstorm. i love them.
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: i really don't know how to answer that.
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a guitar.
If I were an animal, I would be: a panda. because they're so cute.
If I were a color, I would be: orange
If I were an emotion, I would be: love or happiness or internal peace.
If I were a vegetable, I would be: peas. nobody likes them.
If I were a sound, I would be: the sound of the ocean. seriously. its so peaceful.
If I were a car, I would be: a ford focus or an old bug because they're adorable.
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: whoever directed donnie darko.
If I were a book, I would be written by: elizabeth chandler.
If I were a place, I would be: a small town at the edge of the sea in ireland.
If I were a material, I would be: foam.
If I were a taste, I would be: pumpkin pie and or diet pepsi
If I were a scent, I would be: ocean air.
If I were a religion, I would be: buddhism. even though most people think of it as a philosophy.
If I were a word, I would be: fuck.
If I were an object I would be: a hot tub. just because i love them.
If I were a body part, I would be: eyes
If I were a facial expression, I would be: something stupid
If I were a subject in school, I would be: english or history
If I were a comic book character, I would be: i don't know anything about comic books.
If I were a shape, I would be: a trapezoid. they're funny looking.
im in a funny mood right now. i want shit to be peaceful at my house because everybodys fighting and i hate it. alyssas being a cunt right now and making my mom so sad and i hate that. i want my mom to be happy. i want her to have a boyfriend. ugh. two days ago i went to the eric clapton show with her and i wish she could have went with somebody special. she needs to get out and have friends.
i have my future planned out. i want to have kids and be the hockey mom who brings cookies to practice for all the little kids and i wanna drive a mini van and i wanna be the housewife who cooks and cleans and i wanna live in a bright house because my house now is SO dark and depressing. i wanna live near the ocean and i wanna have a dog and i wanna take my kids to the park and play with them. i want to be happy and i don't want any fighting. i want to have a boy and a girl. i want to have a boy first and name him stephan and he can be the big protective brother and then a girl named gabby or emma. i want to be a typical mom who gets involved with my kids school and be social and have friends. but i also want to be the cool mom who understands her kids and lets them have freedom. i want all of this with mike. i want to be the good loving wife to mike because i love him so much. i want to make him happy. i wanna be the kind of wife who makes dinner and has everybody sit at the table. i want to have a happy loving family with mike. i want to be a middle class family. i want to have money but not a lot. enough to have a nice bright house. it doesn't have to be big. i don't give two shits if its big but i want it to be bright and clean and i want to have a yard where i can plant things and play with my kids in the backyard. i want a mini van. i want enough money to get the things i need but also some things i want here and there. i want to have a typical middle class family with mike.
is that weird or wrong? to want all these things when i'm 14? i don't care about enjoying my teenage years. i wish time would move forward to where im out of college so i can have a family. to where im like 28. i want to have this all now but thats impossible and a little silly. i want this so much. i hate how my life is now. i want to get out of this. i wish i was older. so i could marry mike and have a little wedding by the ocean. i want to have a REAL family with rules. i want to raise my children in a totally different way then my mom has with me. i love my mom and everything and im so scared im going to lose her because shes so unhappy but this is no way to live. i want my life to change. i want to be older and raise a family right.
i dunno. i can't really explain how im feeling but thats the best i can. i know i'll probably grow out of it soon but i wish i could have all of that now. i know i want all of that just because of how my home life is now but also because i love mike and i want this with him. i dunno. im sorry if this doesn't make sense to anybody. i just needed to get it out. i was going to make it private but i don't care right now.