sometimes

[poetsheart]

the process of living takes too much energy,
the process of caring takes even more

the process of giving up can become
a way of life.

i am tired.
of my life
of my job
of liars
of feeling everything
of not being willing to just drink it all away

i feel pain.
i feel numb
ifeel alone.

i don't know how to reach out
i don't want to reach out
i don't want to hear someone tell me everything will work out

i want to rage and cry
i want to know why i don't get to be loved.