Wheee
Well, I just finished a 4 hour study session, big exam tomorrow. I feel like I know everything inside out but at the same time like I could never be prepared enough. The good news is my mania seemed to have broke, well, its not mania per se, because I'm on my medicine and I'm regulating myself, its more of a disposition. If it was real mania I wouldn't be functional. Its more of the pressure to become manic. Anyway, its been wearing off and I've been feeling exhausted, as is always the case after a hypomanic spell. I wonder if I might need more meds. Well, I think I'll dig my heals in and deal with it unless I'm under therapuetic range again or it becomes too severe. I wish there was more investigation into the psycological etiology of bipolar disorder. From what I've seen researchers are pretty determined that its a primarily biological disorder.
Cognitive therapy was so great for dealing with OCD, anxiety and deppression and I really wish there was something out there for mania besides education and recognising when to get help. I suppose you can deconstruct (reality-test) delusions as they occur, which I do, and regulate sleeping patterns, which is more behavioral but is something I also do. So in the end I guess I wish there was a magic button that could make the pressure go away but that didn't require taking even more medicine. Though I am on the low end of dosage. Still, I like to reserve as much as I can, in case a tolerance is developed or stressors necceciate a higher dose. Of course that could be what's happening now. Argggg.
Oh well, test tomorrow, I know what I know. If I completely blank out I might do so poorly I get a C, and that's called passing, just need to relax now.
E=E^o-(0.05916/n)*log(Q) motherfucker!
Cognitive therapy was so great for dealing with OCD, anxiety and deppression and I really wish there was something out there for mania besides education and recognising when to get help. I suppose you can deconstruct (reality-test) delusions as they occur, which I do, and regulate sleeping patterns, which is more behavioral but is something I also do. So in the end I guess I wish there was a magic button that could make the pressure go away but that didn't require taking even more medicine. Though I am on the low end of dosage. Still, I like to reserve as much as I can, in case a tolerance is developed or stressors necceciate a higher dose. Of course that could be what's happening now. Argggg.
Oh well, test tomorrow, I know what I know. If I completely blank out I might do so poorly I get a C, and that's called passing, just need to relax now.
E=E^o-(0.05916/n)*log(Q) motherfucker!