the journal ... right...
Yeah I dont really do journals, but I think I should start and to do that I have to go back to June. So yeah June. the last 2 or 3 weeks of June, I met these two guys (Matt-19 yrs old; David-18 yrs old) I didnt really expect to like either one of them ... but there was something about Matt. My friend Tara (who already had a girlfriend and a boyfriend[whom i happen to be friends with both]) liked David so I thought well it can't be that wrong I just can't let ne thing get serious. All of us went up to Tara's Grandfather's for a late night swim. After watching wrestling at David's house we rode in David's car. He has an awesome car and an even better stereo system. It flips over and has a little screen that does all kinds of different grapghics, but ne way ... me and Matt got out of the pool and my clothes had gotten soaked so he gave me his shirt. I thought nothing of it. He told me he would quit smoking and gave me his cigs. to break them all in half. Right after that we went off on a walk well because Tara and this 17 year old Katie were fighting over David. We got tired of listening about it and they purposefully told us to leave. So, we walked up to McDonalds but the only thing open was the drive thru. He started yelling at the drive thru box. It was funny cause I was walking him home and we got to his house and I gave him back his shirt and then he told me that he would walk me home cause it was about 2am and I wasnt properly clothed to be walking home by myself. He grabbed my hand and started walking back to Tara's Grandfather's house. He asked me what my father would say about it. I told him the truth ... I told him my father had no place to say even two words about it. We sat on a we got to the hill right before the house and he said "let's just sit here for a while it's not like they'll even notice were not around". So we sat there for about an hour and he made me feel so speacial. Like me existing has a purpose. David called Matt and they were wondering where we were. We went back down there. Katie got mad at me. said that Matt was too old for me. I really didnt care, but deep down I knew she was right without even meaning to be. They all made up this bogus story on how Tara's mother had been looking all around for me, That she had said it was 2:30am and I had no business being around Matt. I went inside to make sure every thing was okay just to find out that they lied. I went back outside but by that time Katie had run Matt off and then left herself. Tara me and David sat on the porch swing until talking as we were talking I took on of the cigs. Matt told me to break but I hadn't yet. I lit it but I didnt smoke it I held it cherry first and made little "train somke 'o's" by moving it up and down David seemed to be amused. At 6:30am he left for work no one got any sleep. Tara's mom drove me home later that morning saying how Matt was too old and he was trouble I wasn't willing to listen. She said how he had done bad things in the past and all I could say is well I don't think he's that same guy any more and I had to make the comment "well what about David he's friends with Matt?" all she could say was she had never heard anything bad about David. And even though I wasn't willing to listen to the words they still stuck with me.