A stand may lead to a fall
There are times when you feel weak, and you need to take a stand. I mean staying cememented in your convictions without being stubborn, a stand to show that you will not be moved on a certain issue in your personal life. I guess I know what this feels like now.
I just became managing editor for my school paper at Pierce College, and it has a considerable amount of responsibility around it. Yes, not as much as other publications or large news sources that PAY their staff, but it is a lot more responsibility than what I am used to. There are times where I WILL forget about things in my personal life, and make commitments in my proffesional life, such as meetings or interviews. I try not to, but I'm going to make mistakes alot, tons of mistakes, as that is the only way I will learn. That isn't an excuse to make mistakes withou consequence, but the just the simple reality of the world.
People just need to give me space, I have no other way of phrasing that. No matter how stupid it sounds that I am getting stressed over a community college newspaper in the face of becoming a journalist in a larger pub. I just to do, give me room to breath for a moment,learn to fall off the bike and then ride it.
So I say these things, and I have learned that taking a stand may lead to losing others. Commiting myself to one thing may end in me losing another. I never used to believe it when I was a teen, I was pragmatic. I just hope that I do not lsoe another, despite my temper and resolve in being as firm as possible. THAT was probably not the right way to go, but my temper flares when I get offended. I get defensive, because I feel it neccesary. I wouldn't even call it defensive, but call it just simply being hurt by what someone says. Regardless, I shouldn't explode on people.
I just have a lot of things bothering me right now, alot of different feelings circling, stress with money, school, work, and love. I wish I could just find the anwsers to all of these things, but I can't. I wish I could just snap my fingers and get paid more, get done with my transfer requirments, find out what people are really thinking about me.
But that is a whole different story. Not to mention that this whole post doesn't make any sense, and I'm typing it on a f**king Livejournal. Christ, whatever happened to pen and paper.
I just became managing editor for my school paper at Pierce College, and it has a considerable amount of responsibility around it. Yes, not as much as other publications or large news sources that PAY their staff, but it is a lot more responsibility than what I am used to. There are times where I WILL forget about things in my personal life, and make commitments in my proffesional life, such as meetings or interviews. I try not to, but I'm going to make mistakes alot, tons of mistakes, as that is the only way I will learn. That isn't an excuse to make mistakes withou consequence, but the just the simple reality of the world.
People just need to give me space, I have no other way of phrasing that. No matter how stupid it sounds that I am getting stressed over a community college newspaper in the face of becoming a journalist in a larger pub. I just to do, give me room to breath for a moment,learn to fall off the bike and then ride it.
So I say these things, and I have learned that taking a stand may lead to losing others. Commiting myself to one thing may end in me losing another. I never used to believe it when I was a teen, I was pragmatic. I just hope that I do not lsoe another, despite my temper and resolve in being as firm as possible. THAT was probably not the right way to go, but my temper flares when I get offended. I get defensive, because I feel it neccesary. I wouldn't even call it defensive, but call it just simply being hurt by what someone says. Regardless, I shouldn't explode on people.
I just have a lot of things bothering me right now, alot of different feelings circling, stress with money, school, work, and love. I wish I could just find the anwsers to all of these things, but I can't. I wish I could just snap my fingers and get paid more, get done with my transfer requirments, find out what people are really thinking about me.
But that is a whole different story. Not to mention that this whole post doesn't make any sense, and I'm typing it on a f**king Livejournal. Christ, whatever happened to pen and paper.