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most people see her as beautiful.. at least they reasure her that she is. and they like her and they get a long with her just fine. until she messes up.. everything. because its not liek she can jsut mess up and be forgiven. she messess up and messes up real bad. because when she wakes up the next day she realizes that nobody is there for her. because selfpity lays in her heart. regret in her mind.. and a block of heart break.. sits on her lungs only to sufficat her. all she thinks abotu is how much of an idot she is. and she always has somebody agreeing with her. or somebody making her feel liek shit. saying how they person really cared about her. but she knows when somebody really cares about her. or so she thinks. because shes never ahd anybody really care about her. never the way she wanted it. and she starts to question herself.. and life itself. is it really worth it.. continueing on with something she doesnt evern want? because something is always out of her reach.she gets so close to it.. and then its jsut gone because she messes up. so she says shes sorry.. and everythigbn looks like it will be okay. but then she never hears about it again. so again she looses at something. then somebody who she really cares about.. shed give up her life for.. shows up..a nd turns everythign upside down in her life. and then in an isntant is gone again.