words of wisdom?
so im immature? and im annoying? and everything has been given to me on a silver plator? just making sure i got everythign okay. and i talk shit about people? hmm.. and that makes me stupid? well hmm.. since when did speaking your opinion, mean that you are talkign shit? now if i said that she was an ugly fat bitch and shes a slut.. okay i could see that as talkign shit.. although still poinion. but when everything ive ever said about her.. i.e. shes a bitch and i hate her.. ive said to her face.. how is that talkign shit and how is that me talking behind her back? wow. people seriously need to think before they speak. because if anyone talks shit then its you. and p.s you dont live in the real world deary. sorry. oh and sorry my parents actually care about me.. but they dont cause they give me money? makes lots of sense doesnt it.?
anywho. i helped heather n athony paint heathers room. and i taped up the trim so we wouldnt get paint on it.. i think thats where the whole being mexican thing came in handy. and we cack up the holes in the wall.. and anthony kept makign jokes about it. and we tore down boards. heather and i are gonna become painters.
so ive been realy tired lately.. and i stay up super late because im usually thinking of him. and how he pisses the fuck out of me. and how i would love to punch him in the face and tell him how stupid he is. because he is. and how dissapointed i am in him. but somehow i dont think that would help him in this situatuion. he has to learn on his own i guess. he takes things for granted.. and he took me for granted. so i hope when he sees me at nash or by the lake or at dils or at shows.. he realizes how stupid he was .. how stupid he is.. and how i was the best friend he could have ever asked for. and if he doesnt i feel really sorry for him. but whatever i guess.
slept over at allysons on saturday. which was fun. stayed up half the night talkign to bianca. abotu everything. from when i was little to the present day. and how friends mean more to me than anything. and about him. and about J.R. and umm her n brian. it was cool. we ended up crying because we started talking about josh. and i said the memory that i get in my head when i think abotu hima nd how funny he was. was when me n heather where stayign outside of Lance on dya i think we were in 8th grade. and josh kept trying to get heather to make ou with him..a nd she wouldnt. oh and when he told me he knew this kid who i would like.. and the funny thing is i meet him without joshs help..a nd i did like him. or how if i ever needed anything,,, he would be there for me. the thing is sometimes i do need him.. and hes not here. and i guess thats what hurts most of all.
we also talked abotu how the reason i cant let J.R. know i like him or i let him know just without sayign it.. is because of a person who will remain nameless.. as he has for so long, holds me back from it. and plus where two different people.. and theres jsut things i guess i dont .. okay i have trust issues. and im stupid. so i dont jsut go for things.. because liek i said im an idiot.
may 3rd i go to the cubs vs brewers game! were tailgating. how fun???!!!!??? everybody is liek yah lets go shopping and get hot dogs and hamburgers... and im liek what about me??? and then they feel bad so i say how about grilled cheese???!!??? and so we talk and decide.. they eat meat and i eat cheese!!!!!!. so im happy.
anywho. i helped heather n athony paint heathers room. and i taped up the trim so we wouldnt get paint on it.. i think thats where the whole being mexican thing came in handy. and we cack up the holes in the wall.. and anthony kept makign jokes about it. and we tore down boards. heather and i are gonna become painters.
so ive been realy tired lately.. and i stay up super late because im usually thinking of him. and how he pisses the fuck out of me. and how i would love to punch him in the face and tell him how stupid he is. because he is. and how dissapointed i am in him. but somehow i dont think that would help him in this situatuion. he has to learn on his own i guess. he takes things for granted.. and he took me for granted. so i hope when he sees me at nash or by the lake or at dils or at shows.. he realizes how stupid he was .. how stupid he is.. and how i was the best friend he could have ever asked for. and if he doesnt i feel really sorry for him. but whatever i guess.
slept over at allysons on saturday. which was fun. stayed up half the night talkign to bianca. abotu everything. from when i was little to the present day. and how friends mean more to me than anything. and about him. and about J.R. and umm her n brian. it was cool. we ended up crying because we started talking about josh. and i said the memory that i get in my head when i think abotu hima nd how funny he was. was when me n heather where stayign outside of Lance on dya i think we were in 8th grade. and josh kept trying to get heather to make ou with him..a nd she wouldnt. oh and when he told me he knew this kid who i would like.. and the funny thing is i meet him without joshs help..a nd i did like him. or how if i ever needed anything,,, he would be there for me. the thing is sometimes i do need him.. and hes not here. and i guess thats what hurts most of all.
we also talked abotu how the reason i cant let J.R. know i like him or i let him know just without sayign it.. is because of a person who will remain nameless.. as he has for so long, holds me back from it. and plus where two different people.. and theres jsut things i guess i dont .. okay i have trust issues. and im stupid. so i dont jsut go for things.. because liek i said im an idiot.
may 3rd i go to the cubs vs brewers game! were tailgating. how fun???!!!!??? everybody is liek yah lets go shopping and get hot dogs and hamburgers... and im liek what about me??? and then they feel bad so i say how about grilled cheese???!!??? and so we talk and decide.. they eat meat and i eat cheese!!!!!!. so im happy.