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today was an okay day.
school was neutral, nothing too exciting went on.
got home early and sat around doing absolutely nothing for two hours.
what a waste of time. i hate when i do that, even if i can control myself.
i hate stressing over things and making them seem (in my head) to be much worse than they actually are. yeah so i have a bunch of projects and finals coming up, but hey! i can do it! i just need to tell my negative thoughts to shut the fuck up and go to (insert foreign country here).
i guess i never realized it, but i can be very upset with myself(usually for no apparent reason) one second and then extremely happy or at least content with myself another second.
i hate how hard on myself i can be. i have expectations for myself that are as high as the empire state building. it sucks a lot and i judge myself and beat myself up(in the general sense,not the physical sense) and it just hurts me. it's as if someone else were doing it, but it's..not.
i guess this is what journals are for. rambling and telling others how you feel without actually talking to them.
i'm not feeling bad anymore, i just needed to get this all down for my recollection. but to anyone that read this, thanks. haha livejournal is so pointless.
COUNTDOWNS:
swim banquet thursday :D
marissa comes home thursday :D
rilo kiley in a little more than a month :D :D
my birthday in 6 months and 12 days?
oh oh, how could i forget? end of school!: 1 month and 1 day
school was neutral, nothing too exciting went on.
got home early and sat around doing absolutely nothing for two hours.
what a waste of time. i hate when i do that, even if i can control myself.
i hate stressing over things and making them seem (in my head) to be much worse than they actually are. yeah so i have a bunch of projects and finals coming up, but hey! i can do it! i just need to tell my negative thoughts to shut the fuck up and go to (insert foreign country here).
i guess i never realized it, but i can be very upset with myself(usually for no apparent reason) one second and then extremely happy or at least content with myself another second.
i hate how hard on myself i can be. i have expectations for myself that are as high as the empire state building. it sucks a lot and i judge myself and beat myself up(in the general sense,not the physical sense) and it just hurts me. it's as if someone else were doing it, but it's..not.
i guess this is what journals are for. rambling and telling others how you feel without actually talking to them.
i'm not feeling bad anymore, i just needed to get this all down for my recollection. but to anyone that read this, thanks. haha livejournal is so pointless.
COUNTDOWNS:
swim banquet thursday :D
marissa comes home thursday :D
rilo kiley in a little more than a month :D :D
my birthday in 6 months and 12 days?
oh oh, how could i forget? end of school!: 1 month and 1 day