so real.
Yesterday, I had my YMCA meet. I owned all my events, but the horrible part was that I hate that pool with the utmost passion. I got so sick that I should've gone to the hospital because I couldn't breathe and also the fact that my heart rate was at a sky high.
I also went and got Brian's birthday present, hopefully he'll like it. Shawnas christmas present came in the mail too, I hope she likes it, I know she will. :)
Today was complete shit, Jim didn't come down to visit... and to top that off my sister and I got into a fight and I won... odd? She kept calling me lazy, so i retaliated and said " Calling me lazy, who's the fatty, yeah, k great." I made her cry and she left... the Bitch fest then so began. I hate my parents.
I can't wait till college starts. I'm getting my ass out of here and I'm going to be happier than ever.
Poetic Pollution: i'm definitely not perfect
Poetic Pollution: and i relive that fact every second
glitterbomb142: well people make mistakes, but you need to just get over it
Poetic Pollution: yeah
glitterbomb142: would you tell me why you relive it?
Poetic Pollution: everyday its just the same thing
Poetic Pollution: my parents love to tell me how i'm lazy and what not
Poetic Pollution: i do do things
Poetic Pollution: i have a job i swim almost allll the time
glitterbomb142: yeah, my parents are just the same
Poetic Pollution: indeed
Poetic Pollution: it really bothers me
Poetic Pollution: i cleared out my room today of all swimming accomplishments.... my room is bare
glitterbomb142: why would you do that?
Poetic Pollution: they make me feel like i'm nothing
Poetic Pollution: so why have those things up when it doesn't mean anything to them
Poetic Pollution: what point am i proving?
glitterbomb142: your reminding yourself that you did something good, your great at something and you should be reminded of that everytime your parents make you feel worthless sometime you need to be reminded of that
Poetic Pollution: point taken
glitterbomb142: cause i know certain people get to the point of drastic measures, and i dont want you to do that
Poetic Pollution: sometimes drastic measures need to be taken, my parents told me today that they can't wait for me to go to college... then i'm not around them anymore
glitterbomb142: do you dislike them?
Poetic Pollution: yes, very much so, they only have their moments where they could be considered loving
Poetic Pollution: but thats only out in public really
glitterbomb142: well them stay there, dont change for them, even if it is just to spite them
Poetic Pollution: yeah
Poetic Pollution: i'm just tired of this bs
glitterbomb142: trust me i know what your saying
Poetic Pollution: i know
glitterbomb142: but thats what gets me by
Chris, you have no idea how much you help me through thick and thin, you're one of a kind.
I also went and got Brian's birthday present, hopefully he'll like it. Shawnas christmas present came in the mail too, I hope she likes it, I know she will. :)
Today was complete shit, Jim didn't come down to visit... and to top that off my sister and I got into a fight and I won... odd? She kept calling me lazy, so i retaliated and said " Calling me lazy, who's the fatty, yeah, k great." I made her cry and she left... the Bitch fest then so began. I hate my parents.
I can't wait till college starts. I'm getting my ass out of here and I'm going to be happier than ever.
Poetic Pollution: i'm definitely not perfect
Poetic Pollution: and i relive that fact every second
glitterbomb142: well people make mistakes, but you need to just get over it
Poetic Pollution: yeah
glitterbomb142: would you tell me why you relive it?
Poetic Pollution: everyday its just the same thing
Poetic Pollution: my parents love to tell me how i'm lazy and what not
Poetic Pollution: i do do things
Poetic Pollution: i have a job i swim almost allll the time
glitterbomb142: yeah, my parents are just the same
Poetic Pollution: indeed
Poetic Pollution: it really bothers me
Poetic Pollution: i cleared out my room today of all swimming accomplishments.... my room is bare
glitterbomb142: why would you do that?
Poetic Pollution: they make me feel like i'm nothing
Poetic Pollution: so why have those things up when it doesn't mean anything to them
Poetic Pollution: what point am i proving?
glitterbomb142: your reminding yourself that you did something good, your great at something and you should be reminded of that everytime your parents make you feel worthless sometime you need to be reminded of that
Poetic Pollution: point taken
glitterbomb142: cause i know certain people get to the point of drastic measures, and i dont want you to do that
Poetic Pollution: sometimes drastic measures need to be taken, my parents told me today that they can't wait for me to go to college... then i'm not around them anymore
glitterbomb142: do you dislike them?
Poetic Pollution: yes, very much so, they only have their moments where they could be considered loving
Poetic Pollution: but thats only out in public really
glitterbomb142: well them stay there, dont change for them, even if it is just to spite them
Poetic Pollution: yeah
Poetic Pollution: i'm just tired of this bs
glitterbomb142: trust me i know what your saying
Poetic Pollution: i know
glitterbomb142: but thats what gets me by
Chris, you have no idea how much you help me through thick and thin, you're one of a kind.