Re-Defined.

[poeticnerdspeak]

I wrote this Late Winter/Early Spring of last year, while I was in, and coming out of, one of my worst bouts with depression. I found it today because I was browsing through some Poetry files to submit one in a contest, and I thought a few of you [Namely Jess, Sarah L and Bobby] might enjoy it.

Re-Defined.
By Sara Kern.

I am plagued by a grief I cannot define-
My emotions consume me and have blurred the line.
I know not where pain ends or sorrow begins;
The depression I fought once, pounding to get in.

My eyes are heavy, though I am wide awake
Wondering how much more my God will take.
The things I thought immortal, Died as they should,
And my life seems empty of any, and all good.
It's like a dream from which I cannot break--
I'm watching goals shatter I thought would never shake.
In all this there's a constant, a God I cannot define...
He takes from us only to prod and remind.
So often he slips into the backdrop of gray,
and such pains conspire when we try it "Our Way".
This tunnel of darkness in which I've been tossed,
Has helped me remember the morals I've lost.

I am blessed by a grief which will help in time,
The lines are restored; Morals Re-Defined.