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Its funny how things go.. things change but somehow everything stays the same..
i stiole ths quote from jerry because it was something i could relate to..
"Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there…because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't. But then one day you feel something else-something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar. And in that moment you realize…you're happy."
Happiness and i have never been friends and i never knew why.. We got along great when we were together but somehow we always manage to find something wong and cant stay together. I like the awkwardness of not knowing how to be happy and just being happy. But lately ive been feeling an all to familiar feeling, and then i realize that happiness and i always just have flings and never a long lasting relationship.. i guess im used to to it but i still hate it. i hope one day my awkard unfamilar feeling will be paint and that we never have to meet again. After being one way for so long, you get tired and want to move on. and i think i have just understood everything that i have refused to even think about in the past couple of weeks.
Sometimes all we need is a little time outide ourselves and a look through someone elses eyes. I just hope i dont go unseen for long.
I know this entry makes no sense but to me its just what i needed. Life is crazy and lately ive witnessed plenty of proof to that. Heck im proof to that. life is full of twist and trns and no matter for how long you expect them, ur always caugh off gaurd. i got aught again but im letting go already. Sometimes not caring is the easiest thing to do. tho not always the best.
i am still hoping for the best.
Wake me up when its over please.. im done