crazy thoughts

[poeticbrat]

Ever had thoughts you couldnt get past. And as much as it seems to go away, the thoughts resurface. Yeh well I have thoughts that have been like that for the past few months. I must have this extreme connection with Cory, cuz he's the first person that I am honestly afraid to lose. I'm afraid I'm gonna do something to somehow fuck things up. And then its like, I can't not have him around me. These thoughts also have me thinking that I would break my personal promise of not letting anything or anyone hurt him ever as long as I am his friend, his girl, or w/e, if I ever fuck up. I mean I made this promise even before we were bf/gf. I just hate these stupid fuckin thoughts. I don't ever wanna fuck things up ever with him. I love him too much. way too much to do anything wrong. so then why do I think that there's a possibility to fuck up. wtfe!!!!
theres much more going on in my head that i dont think i wanna write about now. i'm too idk......w/e i'll figure it out later. bleh.

xoxo