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Good old livejournal. It's weird looking back over all the changes that have gone on in my life. The people that have came and left. The ones I haven't thought much about. And those I can't forget. Things tend to make more sense in retrospect. Looking back over years of LJ entries I have come to a few conclusions:
-I love how stubborn I am about not settling for anyone.
-I should have believed in myself a lot more than I did.
-I'm lucky...I mean REALLY lucky to have had some really amazing people in my life.
-I need to gain some of my optimism back.
-People have varying beliefs of what beautiful means.
-Some peoples compliments will always make me smile.
-I can't help but wonder where time has taken some people I have lost touch with.
-Going through and surviving the ups and downs can make the friendship more solid.
After reading all those entries and looking at the comments that were made through the years I wanted to do a few special shout outs I doubt people still read this...but just in case. :)
Lori- Thank you so much for being there for me when I really needed you. You are an amazingly special person! You are so compassionate and caring and I know that is part of the reason why you will be/are a fantastic nurse!
Deanna- We've come so far. I really cherish out friendship.
Justin- I wish we could have lived in the same city just once. I think we could have had a really close friendship. As it is I know you are a awesome person! Looking back on my LJ I could see all the encouraging comments you left me and it just made me smile. You always saw something in me that I had a hard time seeing. Thank you for trying to make me see it.
Jerry- The road of our friendship has been rocky at times but in the end it was worth it. Things are always progressing toward something. I think we had to fall apart to fall back together in a better way. Thank you for keeping me in check, being my confidante, best friend and brother.
Al- It seemed as if we would go through periods of time when we would talk fairly often and then periods where we would rarely talk. I have to admit you have helped shape me in many many ways and I will forever be grateful. You were always so encouraging to me. When it came to my writing, it seemed as if you were my biggest fan. I really miss reading all your poems and rants you would post. Your gift of words never failed to amaze me. And I was only just a little jealous. I can't help wondering where you are and how you are doing. It is my hearts secret hope that one day our paths will cross again. If not, it is my pleasure to always call you my friend. Please know that I think of you often and everytime I do I hope you have found your happiness.
Jenny- I miss you. So much. I'm sorry I've been a crappy friend to you lately. Thank you for still calling me and reaching out to me. You are an amazing writer, friend and person. I hope that you realize all of that. I can't wait to see your name in print. And it will happen. If you can't believe look to others because there are so many who believe in you.
-I love how stubborn I am about not settling for anyone.
-I should have believed in myself a lot more than I did.
-I'm lucky...I mean REALLY lucky to have had some really amazing people in my life.
-I need to gain some of my optimism back.
-People have varying beliefs of what beautiful means.
-Some peoples compliments will always make me smile.
-I can't help but wonder where time has taken some people I have lost touch with.
-Going through and surviving the ups and downs can make the friendship more solid.
After reading all those entries and looking at the comments that were made through the years I wanted to do a few special shout outs I doubt people still read this...but just in case. :)
Lori- Thank you so much for being there for me when I really needed you. You are an amazingly special person! You are so compassionate and caring and I know that is part of the reason why you will be/are a fantastic nurse!
Deanna- We've come so far. I really cherish out friendship.
Justin- I wish we could have lived in the same city just once. I think we could have had a really close friendship. As it is I know you are a awesome person! Looking back on my LJ I could see all the encouraging comments you left me and it just made me smile. You always saw something in me that I had a hard time seeing. Thank you for trying to make me see it.
Jerry- The road of our friendship has been rocky at times but in the end it was worth it. Things are always progressing toward something. I think we had to fall apart to fall back together in a better way. Thank you for keeping me in check, being my confidante, best friend and brother.
Al- It seemed as if we would go through periods of time when we would talk fairly often and then periods where we would rarely talk. I have to admit you have helped shape me in many many ways and I will forever be grateful. You were always so encouraging to me. When it came to my writing, it seemed as if you were my biggest fan. I really miss reading all your poems and rants you would post. Your gift of words never failed to amaze me. And I was only just a little jealous. I can't help wondering where you are and how you are doing. It is my hearts secret hope that one day our paths will cross again. If not, it is my pleasure to always call you my friend. Please know that I think of you often and everytime I do I hope you have found your happiness.
Jenny- I miss you. So much. I'm sorry I've been a crappy friend to you lately. Thank you for still calling me and reaching out to me. You are an amazing writer, friend and person. I hope that you realize all of that. I can't wait to see your name in print. And it will happen. If you can't believe look to others because there are so many who believe in you.