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Ever have those days where you know you shouldnt have gotten out of bed? today was one of those days.
I hurt my friends. And I hurt/disappointed a very close friend today by my (lack) of actions. I'm sorry to you all. I know, apologies don't do much, but they are meant coming from me.
I dont know why I dont call anyone, I work all weekend and have school all week...its not that I dont want to hang out..I'm so friggin tired and unmotivated. I dont initiate anything. If my mom wouldnt call me down to dinner, I wouldnt eat. If my parents dont tell me to do my homework or to go to bed or take a shower or do chores, I wouldn't. It's not an excuse, it's a shitty point in my life.
I make mistakes, I fuck up..the sad part is I do it time and time again and I hurt the ones I love the most. Why?
I always go into these things for months, then i get back out of it and start being initiative...ly and motivated, then i stop caring again...i need to start showing it...again...it pisses me off i cant stay one way or another. but thats something i need to work on.
i have a good life, great friends and family. i love it. i need to show it. point blank.
I hurt my friends. And I hurt/disappointed a very close friend today by my (lack) of actions. I'm sorry to you all. I know, apologies don't do much, but they are meant coming from me.
I dont know why I dont call anyone, I work all weekend and have school all week...its not that I dont want to hang out..I'm so friggin tired and unmotivated. I dont initiate anything. If my mom wouldnt call me down to dinner, I wouldnt eat. If my parents dont tell me to do my homework or to go to bed or take a shower or do chores, I wouldn't. It's not an excuse, it's a shitty point in my life.
I make mistakes, I fuck up..the sad part is I do it time and time again and I hurt the ones I love the most. Why?
I always go into these things for months, then i get back out of it and start being initiative...ly and motivated, then i stop caring again...i need to start showing it...again...it pisses me off i cant stay one way or another. but thats something i need to work on.
i have a good life, great friends and family. i love it. i need to show it. point blank.