Tell me would you kill to save a life?
Seriously, part of me wants to drop out of school, follow around 30 Seconds to Mars, be Jared Leto's groupie and somehow become famous. but my logical part of my mind knows this is no good. lol so I will continue going to class and live this life but I want so much more.
I know it's dumb but I just really want to be famous. I want to be able to go to special events, have money, be well known, and just be able to rub elbows with celebs. I mean, if I could marry Jared Leto, my life would be complete. lololol
So I think I might start going to open casting calls for tv shows and submit a tv idea to MTV. Maybe i'll get picked. I'm afraid I don't look like someone they would want to cast though. i'm not super skinny and I have flaws. But who knows. Gah. A cruel world. I wish I could be involved in the music industry somehow. idk how or what but I want to be involved in it. My mom said she can see me doing it and I liked that idea. Who knows though. So many dreams with so little time.
My mom plans on getting my eyes lasered which is pretty rad. I'll no longer have glasses!? NO WAY!!
I wish I lived in LA. Everyday I just wish I was there. I don't want to be here for the winter. I am just dreading it so much. LA is just so perfect. I can't even wait to vacation there. I guess Steve wants to go too? lmao Me, Joe and Steve....AWESOME. Hopefully Jessica will go too. I need someone normal there. lol
I'm still fighting with Brandie. I'm trying to be okay with her just for everyone else. i really want nothing to do with her anymore. Not after she lied and continues to lie. Not after she went after and did stuff with another guy I liked. how many times am I suppose to let her do that and be okay with it? Whatever. She can just fuck off. I'm just so angry at her. UGH
So next week on Friday is the Eminem concert. FUCK YES. Been waiting since I was 10 for this. And then Saturday is my 21st birthday and The Gaga concert. It should be fun. But Brandie is going to be there....on both days. awesome. :/ But JUSTINE IS COMING HOME FOR IT SO YAY :D
Justine left today. I'm glad she'll be back in a week but damn, then she will be gone for months. Idk this is weird. Going from seeing someone all the time to one every couple months. I'm so sick today. Drank half a fifth of Jager with Jessica last night and let's just say, not my best idea. I have thrown up so much today my stomach feels like I have been beat. :[ bad news bears.
30 Seconds to Mars Oct 6th and Oct 8th perhaps?!?! I can't even wait. Idk how I'm going to ask Jared to let me be his groupie for the night but lmao I just want himmmmm. DAMNN
As with all my entries, I will post a video of my loves. This performance is old but amazing. And Jared looks extra sexy in that outfit. Yum
I know it's dumb but I just really want to be famous. I want to be able to go to special events, have money, be well known, and just be able to rub elbows with celebs. I mean, if I could marry Jared Leto, my life would be complete. lololol
So I think I might start going to open casting calls for tv shows and submit a tv idea to MTV. Maybe i'll get picked. I'm afraid I don't look like someone they would want to cast though. i'm not super skinny and I have flaws. But who knows. Gah. A cruel world. I wish I could be involved in the music industry somehow. idk how or what but I want to be involved in it. My mom said she can see me doing it and I liked that idea. Who knows though. So many dreams with so little time.
My mom plans on getting my eyes lasered which is pretty rad. I'll no longer have glasses!? NO WAY!!
I wish I lived in LA. Everyday I just wish I was there. I don't want to be here for the winter. I am just dreading it so much. LA is just so perfect. I can't even wait to vacation there. I guess Steve wants to go too? lmao Me, Joe and Steve....AWESOME. Hopefully Jessica will go too. I need someone normal there. lol
I'm still fighting with Brandie. I'm trying to be okay with her just for everyone else. i really want nothing to do with her anymore. Not after she lied and continues to lie. Not after she went after and did stuff with another guy I liked. how many times am I suppose to let her do that and be okay with it? Whatever. She can just fuck off. I'm just so angry at her. UGH
So next week on Friday is the Eminem concert. FUCK YES. Been waiting since I was 10 for this. And then Saturday is my 21st birthday and The Gaga concert. It should be fun. But Brandie is going to be there....on both days. awesome. :/ But JUSTINE IS COMING HOME FOR IT SO YAY :D
Justine left today. I'm glad she'll be back in a week but damn, then she will be gone for months. Idk this is weird. Going from seeing someone all the time to one every couple months. I'm so sick today. Drank half a fifth of Jager with Jessica last night and let's just say, not my best idea. I have thrown up so much today my stomach feels like I have been beat. :[ bad news bears.
30 Seconds to Mars Oct 6th and Oct 8th perhaps?!?! I can't even wait. Idk how I'm going to ask Jared to let me be his groupie for the night but lmao I just want himmmmm. DAMNN
As with all my entries, I will post a video of my loves. This performance is old but amazing. And Jared looks extra sexy in that outfit. Yum
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