"I lost my direction, where do I turn?"
Is something wrong with me? I mean.. seriously. I think there might be.
Tonight I went out with some friends and we watched movies at someone's house. It was fun being around all of them. I love hanging with my friends. But Kevin was there. And, well.. Kevin and I are officially a couple now. We've been together since the 5th. He's been waiting for me to decide if I wanted to be with him, and I really thought I did. So I said yes. I mean.. maybe it was just because I felt pressured by my friends and even myself to be with him. But I really thought I did like him. And anyway, whenever he kisses me.. I just.. don't feel anything. At all. And I think there's something wrong with me because of that. Because everytime I picture me kissing a guy that has recently started to "hang out" with me in more than friendlier ways.. I don't get excited or flustered or sappy or anything! I don't even LIKE kissing. I'm just so confused. I just don't feel attracted to any of them.
Maybe I just haven't found the "right one" yet. Hopefully that's it...
Tonight I went out with some friends and we watched movies at someone's house. It was fun being around all of them. I love hanging with my friends. But Kevin was there. And, well.. Kevin and I are officially a couple now. We've been together since the 5th. He's been waiting for me to decide if I wanted to be with him, and I really thought I did. So I said yes. I mean.. maybe it was just because I felt pressured by my friends and even myself to be with him. But I really thought I did like him. And anyway, whenever he kisses me.. I just.. don't feel anything. At all. And I think there's something wrong with me because of that. Because everytime I picture me kissing a guy that has recently started to "hang out" with me in more than friendlier ways.. I don't get excited or flustered or sappy or anything! I don't even LIKE kissing. I'm just so confused. I just don't feel attracted to any of them.
Maybe I just haven't found the "right one" yet. Hopefully that's it...