Struggling inside
Okay, today was a really good day....
....which made it a horrendously difficult day....
...because I'm leaving.....
It's not that I don't have faith for the change I'm about to make. It's just that right now I want to keep livng with my same friends in my same town and develop the same relationships that God's given me HERE. I'm so thrilled that I'll be living in Tennessee - the vast beauty of the land and the love of my grandparents make the transition worthwhile - yet I feel in my heart that I'll never be able to procure friends as amazing as the friends that I've made in Daytona. I'll miss them.
I never knew how powerfully suffocating the emotion could be.
I'm kicking and screaming and yet running towards the change. The curious Catch 22 demands a walk of faith. The reconciliation of heart and determination settles in a seive that sifts through the frustration and produces something closer to maturity. I'll be okay. In many decades, I'll rest in a rocking chair and hum about the changes God's brought me through. I'll tell some younger person that life reaches beyond today's horizon and that courage isn't defined by motive but by execution.
Yet I'll surely miss my friends more than they will ever know. Thank goodness for communication, ey? Thank goodness for communication indeed.
....which made it a horrendously difficult day....
...because I'm leaving.....
It's not that I don't have faith for the change I'm about to make. It's just that right now I want to keep livng with my same friends in my same town and develop the same relationships that God's given me HERE. I'm so thrilled that I'll be living in Tennessee - the vast beauty of the land and the love of my grandparents make the transition worthwhile - yet I feel in my heart that I'll never be able to procure friends as amazing as the friends that I've made in Daytona. I'll miss them.
I never knew how powerfully suffocating the emotion could be.
I'm kicking and screaming and yet running towards the change. The curious Catch 22 demands a walk of faith. The reconciliation of heart and determination settles in a seive that sifts through the frustration and produces something closer to maturity. I'll be okay. In many decades, I'll rest in a rocking chair and hum about the changes God's brought me through. I'll tell some younger person that life reaches beyond today's horizon and that courage isn't defined by motive but by execution.
Yet I'll surely miss my friends more than they will ever know. Thank goodness for communication, ey? Thank goodness for communication indeed.