for amanda
"for amanda"
so many words you say
with every precious breath you take
how many more until the balance breaks?
how man more until you trip and fall?
when you lie with every breath
that you can muster
you fuck yourself
just like your name was custer
the strange part of it is
that you're one of the natives
who sold your people for a slice of bread
i wonder how long it will take
before like glass your friendships break
(before you finally pump the brakes
instead of just making mistakes)
even from a thousand miles away
i can see through your fabulistic haze
liar, falsifier, deceiver
false witness, maligner, misleader
how can any one believe her?
this academic un-achiever
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: wtf ryan.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: my god.
PoeticFire666: my god what?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: why the hell did you write that.
PoeticFire666: because upon reading conversations you've had with other people, its clear and easy to see that you're just stirring up trouble
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: conversations eh?
PoeticFire666: i don't understand why nobody seems to get the idea that we're out of high school and that its time to act like ADULTS now
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: and ur poem bout me..that you posted in a bulliton and a a blog...is mature? and acting like an adult?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: i think not.
PoeticFire666: its called freedom of expression
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: so take some of your own god damn medicine before it gets fucking shoved down your throat
PoeticFire666: and if its not mature or adult like, then its only a thousandth of the behaviour tthat you have displayed
PoeticFire666: oh really? shoved down my throat by whom?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: u dont know what i have displayed.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: u dont know me.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: you dont know my life.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: who i speak with
PoeticFire666: no i dont
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: or who i fuck
PoeticFire666: and you don't know mine either
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: i didnt say i did.
PoeticFire666: i know you didn't
PoeticFire666: but i can see the things you've said
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: oh yeah?
PoeticFire666: and i can see how when somebody gets caught in a lie they lash out
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: haha. what lie.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: please tell me.
PoeticFire666: there's so many its hard for me to choose
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: god damn.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: there must be.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: are u talking to compulsive liar iffi?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: shit, i dont even need to ask.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: i know.
PoeticFire666: even if i am what is it to you?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: the fact tht she lies.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: and tries to ruin every minute of my happiness.
PoeticFire666: maybe you need to move on
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: yet she wants the drama to stop, so she needs to stop giving shit out.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: move on?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: i dont give afuck bout her.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: if someone wpould like her and actually wnt to take her place at my apt...then i would move out...and on a little more.
PoeticFire666: if you don't give a fuck about her then why would you spend so much time texting her with evil statements and talking all kinds of shit to her friend beth
and others?
PoeticFire666: i mean, what do i care if she has herpes or any of that shit?
PoeticFire666: from my end its just good conversation
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: and ours was good conversation until you decided to believe my ex best friends lies to ruin our friendship.
PoeticFire666: no ours was always fluff and you know it. what did we ever talk about? what did we really have in comon?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: beth called her a liar to me tonight! so how am i talking shit.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: you would fucking call me..when u were alone, drunk, when your friends ditched you. i never once had to be there for yo.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: you*
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: but i was. because i was your FRIEND.
PoeticFire666: did you ever think that people might lie to you just to get you to shut the hell up for five seconds?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: so ur a liar?
PoeticFire666: i'm an actor
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: i hardly talked...you always sang, and were fucking wasted.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: and i just chilled.
drugs make me: had you on speaker phone, and would say "yeh" for you to think i was listening so fuck you ryan! fuck you! i wish youa the fucking best with
everything that life brings you. thank you for pretending to be a friend for a long time. i thought i found someone real, but obviously not. keep the job ur at. im sure
you will make it somewhere...one day. believe in yourself. love you, even tho you hate me...and ive done nothing to hurt you or decieve you.
teh native: burn in hell you worthless piece of shit. oh and tell iffi that i hope her birth father rapes her again <3 cause she likes it. good day.
you make my point so much better when you have commentary on it. love you too, you worthless piece of shit. have fun crying, listening to the used and slitting your wrists. just remember its down the road, not across the street. when people are handed educations that are so undeserving, it really makes me sick, and hate the world more and more. maybe she was right when she said that i dont know either of the people involved in the situation, but i got involved for no reason... oh wait there was a reason. she dragged me into it and made me curious when she started saying how much she hated iffi. the girl with the hunter s. thompson tattoo... the one who reads books and writes poetry and listens to decent music. whatever. its all done and blocked now, so lets just hope she doesn't add me to her random phone calls and texts of anger and hatred. that's the only thing that happened today. seriously. i played resident evil 4 all fucking day. its kinda sick. i should start like... doing pushups or something. well with nobody in town what else would i have done besides something productive
so many words you say
with every precious breath you take
how many more until the balance breaks?
how man more until you trip and fall?
when you lie with every breath
that you can muster
you fuck yourself
just like your name was custer
the strange part of it is
that you're one of the natives
who sold your people for a slice of bread
i wonder how long it will take
before like glass your friendships break
(before you finally pump the brakes
instead of just making mistakes)
even from a thousand miles away
i can see through your fabulistic haze
liar, falsifier, deceiver
false witness, maligner, misleader
how can any one believe her?
this academic un-achiever
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: wtf ryan.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: my god.
PoeticFire666: my god what?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: why the hell did you write that.
PoeticFire666: because upon reading conversations you've had with other people, its clear and easy to see that you're just stirring up trouble
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: conversations eh?
PoeticFire666: i don't understand why nobody seems to get the idea that we're out of high school and that its time to act like ADULTS now
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: and ur poem bout me..that you posted in a bulliton and a a blog...is mature? and acting like an adult?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: i think not.
PoeticFire666: its called freedom of expression
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: so take some of your own god damn medicine before it gets fucking shoved down your throat
PoeticFire666: and if its not mature or adult like, then its only a thousandth of the behaviour tthat you have displayed
PoeticFire666: oh really? shoved down my throat by whom?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: u dont know what i have displayed.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: u dont know me.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: you dont know my life.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: who i speak with
PoeticFire666: no i dont
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: or who i fuck
PoeticFire666: and you don't know mine either
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: i didnt say i did.
PoeticFire666: i know you didn't
PoeticFire666: but i can see the things you've said
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: oh yeah?
PoeticFire666: and i can see how when somebody gets caught in a lie they lash out
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: haha. what lie.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: please tell me.
PoeticFire666: there's so many its hard for me to choose
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: god damn.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: there must be.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: are u talking to compulsive liar iffi?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: shit, i dont even need to ask.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: i know.
PoeticFire666: even if i am what is it to you?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: the fact tht she lies.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: and tries to ruin every minute of my happiness.
PoeticFire666: maybe you need to move on
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: yet she wants the drama to stop, so she needs to stop giving shit out.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: move on?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: i dont give afuck bout her.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: if someone wpould like her and actually wnt to take her place at my apt...then i would move out...and on a little more.
PoeticFire666: if you don't give a fuck about her then why would you spend so much time texting her with evil statements and talking all kinds of shit to her friend beth
and others?
PoeticFire666: i mean, what do i care if she has herpes or any of that shit?
PoeticFire666: from my end its just good conversation
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: and ours was good conversation until you decided to believe my ex best friends lies to ruin our friendship.
PoeticFire666: no ours was always fluff and you know it. what did we ever talk about? what did we really have in comon?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: beth called her a liar to me tonight! so how am i talking shit.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: you would fucking call me..when u were alone, drunk, when your friends ditched you. i never once had to be there for yo.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: you*
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: but i was. because i was your FRIEND.
PoeticFire666: did you ever think that people might lie to you just to get you to shut the hell up for five seconds?
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: so ur a liar?
PoeticFire666: i'm an actor
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: i hardly talked...you always sang, and were fucking wasted.
gLuEsTiCkReScUe: and i just chilled.
drugs make me: had you on speaker phone, and would say "yeh" for you to think i was listening so fuck you ryan! fuck you! i wish youa the fucking best with
everything that life brings you. thank you for pretending to be a friend for a long time. i thought i found someone real, but obviously not. keep the job ur at. im sure
you will make it somewhere...one day. believe in yourself. love you, even tho you hate me...and ive done nothing to hurt you or decieve you.
teh native: burn in hell you worthless piece of shit. oh and tell iffi that i hope her birth father rapes her again <3 cause she likes it. good day.
you make my point so much better when you have commentary on it. love you too, you worthless piece of shit. have fun crying, listening to the used and slitting your wrists. just remember its down the road, not across the street. when people are handed educations that are so undeserving, it really makes me sick, and hate the world more and more. maybe she was right when she said that i dont know either of the people involved in the situation, but i got involved for no reason... oh wait there was a reason. she dragged me into it and made me curious when she started saying how much she hated iffi. the girl with the hunter s. thompson tattoo... the one who reads books and writes poetry and listens to decent music. whatever. its all done and blocked now, so lets just hope she doesn't add me to her random phone calls and texts of anger and hatred. that's the only thing that happened today. seriously. i played resident evil 4 all fucking day. its kinda sick. i should start like... doing pushups or something. well with nobody in town what else would i have done besides something productive