life changing choices

[poetic_fire]

so for anybody that doesn't know, i lost my job at fastenal on wednesday, got drunk every night therafter except sunday and probably tonight, thus far.. but friday dave and i left for carbondale, had a good time there and scoped out the scene, found lots of places for rent and there were so many places that looked like they needed help on the day shift side of things... i just need to type out a resume and hope to find a job before january... it will probably wind up being something shitty but as long as i'm making some money before getting down there, i'm happy... i bought a suit at the unique thrift store in joliet today for 6.57 ... that and some blue hair dye... hell yeah... getting pimped out for the dillinger escape plan show at the metro tomorrow... they're playing with ZAO and EVERY TIME I DIE.. it should be a fucking rocking show... i'm quite looking forward to that... grr... i guess i dont have much to say... oh yeah... i just wrote this poem last night... check it out and post comments accordingly... i'm pretty happy with it...

"kissing causes cancer"

as lighters outlast cigarettes
like lighters tend to do
my care has drifted far away
my care has outlasted you
like every puff of smoke inhaled
your kisses dirtied my insides
i'm done with your malignant presence
there's no what ifs, and there's no whys
like the lack of questions in my mind
about doubt between you and i
when i said i loved you
it never was a lie

*the following lines were just added as i was typing it here

i don't want you to hurt
i don't want you to cry
all i need from you now
are just the words "good bye"