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So...methinks it is about time I update my journal and write another long spill about God knows what, we'll just wait and see what comes to me...
Well, something that has been on my mind lately is just how quick time is escaping me (I'm sure I've already posted about this sometime in the past), I know I'm not even seventeen, but it just seems to have gone so fast, l try and recall things and everything blurs together. When I look at photos or read something I wrote a few years ago, I wonder who that person is. I seem to be constantly changing as time goes on which is not necessarily a bad thing of course, but it is a bit daunting, it's like I'm losing myself in time. It's almost like I only exist in this moment and can only comprehend and undersatnd myself now. I'm not saying that reflection doesn't teach me a great deal because it does of course, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I can never really know who I am because depending on the moment I will be someone different.
If someone asked you to describe yourself, would you say something like "funny, intelligent, thoguhtful etc?". Are we really just words, is that how we think of people "Oh so and so? Yeah, they're beautiful" or "She's so smart". Hmm I'm not making myself very clear here. I guess what I'm trying to say is that are our characteristics what make us who we are? Surley our soul, our personality is who we are, yet they are rarley what one uses to describe someone.
In conjunction with these thoughts, they are making me appreciate life so much more, I think philosophy might have something to do with it actually, studying the theories of how the universe came to be etc. One of the things in class that was discussed was that when the 'big bang' occurred, the details of it had to be so precise for life to be able to survive and start that if you changed even the slightest detail gravity would alter and ultimately the life would not exist, or at the very least not in the same way.
Each of us are given a piece of time and space to use as we wish at our fingertips, that notion in itself is just so amazing to me. Sometimes I get caught up in living, in work, school, training, that I don't take time out to just, well think, to put everything back into perspective and realize what's important and what isn't. I want to do something fantastic with my life, I feel like I could, I just don't know what exactly. That brings me to another niggling thought, not knowing where I'm going in my life.
Well, I tell a lie. I have short term goals, VCE, black belt, work etc, but after VCE, i don't know what i want to do, besides going to Uni that is. Something english-y i imagine, but I don't think i could be a teacher, perhaps a journalist that travels around the world, or maybe someone who just studies, an acadmeic? That would be awesome, realistic though? Not really (as if i could just run up HECS fee's my whole life, lol)....
Hmmm, I think I better ponder this by myself for a while, I will return to these thoughts though sometime later.
Ciao!!!
Well, something that has been on my mind lately is just how quick time is escaping me (I'm sure I've already posted about this sometime in the past), I know I'm not even seventeen, but it just seems to have gone so fast, l try and recall things and everything blurs together. When I look at photos or read something I wrote a few years ago, I wonder who that person is. I seem to be constantly changing as time goes on which is not necessarily a bad thing of course, but it is a bit daunting, it's like I'm losing myself in time. It's almost like I only exist in this moment and can only comprehend and undersatnd myself now. I'm not saying that reflection doesn't teach me a great deal because it does of course, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I can never really know who I am because depending on the moment I will be someone different.
If someone asked you to describe yourself, would you say something like "funny, intelligent, thoguhtful etc?". Are we really just words, is that how we think of people "Oh so and so? Yeah, they're beautiful" or "She's so smart". Hmm I'm not making myself very clear here. I guess what I'm trying to say is that are our characteristics what make us who we are? Surley our soul, our personality is who we are, yet they are rarley what one uses to describe someone.
In conjunction with these thoughts, they are making me appreciate life so much more, I think philosophy might have something to do with it actually, studying the theories of how the universe came to be etc. One of the things in class that was discussed was that when the 'big bang' occurred, the details of it had to be so precise for life to be able to survive and start that if you changed even the slightest detail gravity would alter and ultimately the life would not exist, or at the very least not in the same way.
Each of us are given a piece of time and space to use as we wish at our fingertips, that notion in itself is just so amazing to me. Sometimes I get caught up in living, in work, school, training, that I don't take time out to just, well think, to put everything back into perspective and realize what's important and what isn't. I want to do something fantastic with my life, I feel like I could, I just don't know what exactly. That brings me to another niggling thought, not knowing where I'm going in my life.
Well, I tell a lie. I have short term goals, VCE, black belt, work etc, but after VCE, i don't know what i want to do, besides going to Uni that is. Something english-y i imagine, but I don't think i could be a teacher, perhaps a journalist that travels around the world, or maybe someone who just studies, an acadmeic? That would be awesome, realistic though? Not really (as if i could just run up HECS fee's my whole life, lol)....
Hmmm, I think I better ponder this by myself for a while, I will return to these thoughts though sometime later.
Ciao!!!