Bleh Week but good with Aunt Rena here
So. Last week was bleu. I got mad at my 8D class cause they walked out of the Jazz at Lincoln Center performers. UGH. Whatever. I'm not going to waste my journals on my teaching stuff.
Aunt Rena visited which was great! I loved hanging out with her- especially one on one. We had a really good talk about possible alcoholism. It was needed. I need to make better decisions and be vigilant and not make rationalizations (which I'm too good at). We went to see Eric Clapton and it was AMAZING (and John Mayer played a few songs too !) And we went to Tribeca to eat at Deniro's resto. And then we saw the play the Incident of the Curious Dog in the Nighttime. It was SO GOOD. However I fell asleep during both performances- I am too exhausted.
Then on Monday morning she left. Monday night was my date with Kyle. UGH. So frustrated with dating. I was worried that he wouldn't look like his pictures and I was right. He kinda had a weird puffy face. But I was listening to this podcast that mentioned attractive women get messaged about 10 times more than average women.... I never get messaged... am I ugly? And am I as unattractive as Kyle? If that's who I attract, then what does that say about me?
Maybe I was just lucky with Chris and Jordan and Trevor. The other guys weren't that attractive to other people. Maybe I am just really fucking ugly and they didn't care and just wanted to get laid or "liked my personality." I mean, Bryan isn't particularly physically attractive either. He just has this confidence about him that is attractive.
But I could all be PMS-ing. One more week till the bloodgates (get it? play on words with floodgates... or watergate).
Aunt Rena visited which was great! I loved hanging out with her- especially one on one. We had a really good talk about possible alcoholism. It was needed. I need to make better decisions and be vigilant and not make rationalizations (which I'm too good at). We went to see Eric Clapton and it was AMAZING (and John Mayer played a few songs too !) And we went to Tribeca to eat at Deniro's resto. And then we saw the play the Incident of the Curious Dog in the Nighttime. It was SO GOOD. However I fell asleep during both performances- I am too exhausted.
Then on Monday morning she left. Monday night was my date with Kyle. UGH. So frustrated with dating. I was worried that he wouldn't look like his pictures and I was right. He kinda had a weird puffy face. But I was listening to this podcast that mentioned attractive women get messaged about 10 times more than average women.... I never get messaged... am I ugly? And am I as unattractive as Kyle? If that's who I attract, then what does that say about me?
Maybe I was just lucky with Chris and Jordan and Trevor. The other guys weren't that attractive to other people. Maybe I am just really fucking ugly and they didn't care and just wanted to get laid or "liked my personality." I mean, Bryan isn't particularly physically attractive either. He just has this confidence about him that is attractive.
But I could all be PMS-ing. One more week till the bloodgates (get it? play on words with floodgates... or watergate).