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CTY, you know, it was probably the one experience of my life I should have gotten more out of than I did. And it was amazing and really eye-opening. Not because of the people I met, because I never talked to them since. And it's not because of what I learned in class, because I can't remember a goddamn lesson. And it wasn't really anything that really happened that I should have milked. It was really just my being there. Thrown into this new place, not knowing anybody, not knowing anything. And I was really curious to see how I would do. To see how I would handle it. And I observed myself do things, as I talked to people and reacted and created. To see if I could become a better person for it and from it.
And I guess I did fine. I laughed a lot with those temporary friends you make at those sorts of places. But it didn't change me. And maybe I was wrong to expect it to.
But I'm gonna tell you something. I have changed more in this past year, just being here, than any three weeks at any school in any summer could have done. But it will take some time before I can decide if I am better for it. Largely, I am too distracted by how much sadder it has made things.
-Hanh
And I guess I did fine. I laughed a lot with those temporary friends you make at those sorts of places. But it didn't change me. And maybe I was wrong to expect it to.
But I'm gonna tell you something. I have changed more in this past year, just being here, than any three weeks at any school in any summer could have done. But it will take some time before I can decide if I am better for it. Largely, I am too distracted by how much sadder it has made things.
-Hanh