The No-No Place.
I cannot tell if my room looks cleaner now that I ripped down all that shit or if it just looks emptier. Either way, I wake up in the morning and it takes me a few seconds to realize where I am.
Whatever.
I am really productive when I want to be, I've noticed. Sometimes I'll start cleaning like a madwoman and while half of me is sorting and vacuuming and organizing, the other half of me watches on in disbelief. And then I do this thing where I care so unbelievably much about something that shouldn't demand so much of my attention, like responding to a letter or reorganizing my music.
It frightens me that I have so much willpower for such insignificant things, but when it comes to bigger events, I can't even bring myself to acknowledge them.
Some sort of fancy defense mechanism thought up by some German.
But mostly, I think I give up on trying to understand myself.
And so I'll spend this summer eating and reading magazines and dancing around half naked. Which is how one should spend the summer.
-Hanh
Whatever.
I am really productive when I want to be, I've noticed. Sometimes I'll start cleaning like a madwoman and while half of me is sorting and vacuuming and organizing, the other half of me watches on in disbelief. And then I do this thing where I care so unbelievably much about something that shouldn't demand so much of my attention, like responding to a letter or reorganizing my music.
It frightens me that I have so much willpower for such insignificant things, but when it comes to bigger events, I can't even bring myself to acknowledge them.
Some sort of fancy defense mechanism thought up by some German.
But mostly, I think I give up on trying to understand myself.
And so I'll spend this summer eating and reading magazines and dancing around half naked. Which is how one should spend the summer.
-Hanh