in his absence
ive seen you, and have the faint sent of need in my mind. these combined creat an emotion i cannot comprehend. a mix of sadness, longing, regret...im not sure. I MISS YOU! can you know this..i hate this..i hate me..i hate you. it hurts to see you, and it not be you! for seconds, i make a mistake and believe that i love this you, and need to talk with him! but this isnt true even though i wish it was! i miss you! and i know you cant indulge this, for the pain it causes you..that i gave you, and for the truth that YOU KNOW which will inevidably amend your sacrifice. wisely chossen. but i want you to know that, what ever my actions may dictate, and despte the behavor i expressed, the truth is and will remain..my greatest sufrage..is that i truey and always have..loved..my tears say this and it is explosive. although i know i will never give myself this. my id and conflicting ego will always prefent this, and remain in suffrage in a constant battle. scaring me in the proccess. ideas which mimic wonder, pleasure, and faith...can you see them.