i cant do it anymore!!!!!
ok so i have been lying to my self saying im doing good, im breaking down, im loossing it. im hurtting more then i should be...this just doesnt seem write why do i hurt if hes just out having fun with all these other girls...why am ihurtting when he has moved on. ijust dont get hats going on. ive been hanging out at tinas like everynight trying to keep things off my mind and just talk to her. i stay at her house till i cant keep my eyes open. and some how it turns write back into what i dont want it to. i have a feeling theirs something going on but i dont konw i can only have that feeling. so if you ask me how im doing and i say just find im lying. for some reson i have this feeling that im hurtting and hes out i dont konw just lets say "feeling on your booty". i might be wrong but thats the feeling that i have had. but why i normaly dont get feelings like unless its true. but maybe im wrong this time.....have u ever felt like someone is pushing you away and they dont want to be friends but they just dont know how to tell you or they say i just dont wnat to hurt you...well fuck if you dont wat to be friends then why the hell does it matter if you, hurt them or not...i think youve gotten hurt enough..well i need to go and do some stuff before i have to head off to work and try to clean up all of my FUCKIN tears . but if you love me or want to talk to me call me on my cell hint hint....talkt o u later bye