Sleep in heavenly peace..finally
Last night was the first in possibly three weeks that I have gotten a full night's sleep/rest. It was far better than sex (even though I had a dream last night that some guy I've never seen before was my "boyfriend," and was all about GETTIN' ON 'DIS...we had sex, in other words).
If there was anything else I wanted to write about, then I just completely lost it. Other than the fact that I feel 89257845874897583475 times better. Like, I'm happy-ish. It's so fucking wonderful to have that feeling again. In a different way, though. But yeah, it's there, and I like it. I LIKES IT A LOT.
The only thing that I'm "meh" about is the ever-so-wonderful "I have no one to love and love me back" sort of feeling. In a RELATIONSHIP kind of way. I know I'll be getting comments out the ass from my dearest heterosexual female friends being all, "BUT EMILYYY!!11! I LUV U!!111ooone" Maybe not quite like that, but something along those lines. And to clarify, I know I don't NEED a guy to love me in order for me to be happy..it's just a nice thing to have, you know? I'm not going to wait around for "him" to come along. I stopped caring a couple months before Joe came along, and then BAM, there he was. Unexpected and completely out of nowhere. That's the best way to find love, I say. Sigh. Oh, it'll come. Love will find me and we'll proceed to scrump like bunnies aaaaall night long. The only time I don't mind not to get any sleep, awthankyou! OH, I'M SO BAD! I'm such a bad girl! I need to be locked in a cage while people poke and prod me with sticks!
::randomly breaks into song::
The suuuun ain't gonna shiiiine anyyymoooore, the moooon ain't gonna riiiise in the skyyyy, teeeears are alwaaaays cloooouding your eyyyyyes, wheeen you're withooooout looooooove!
Fin.
If there was anything else I wanted to write about, then I just completely lost it. Other than the fact that I feel 89257845874897583475 times better. Like, I'm happy-ish. It's so fucking wonderful to have that feeling again. In a different way, though. But yeah, it's there, and I like it. I LIKES IT A LOT.
The only thing that I'm "meh" about is the ever-so-wonderful "I have no one to love and love me back" sort of feeling. In a RELATIONSHIP kind of way. I know I'll be getting comments out the ass from my dearest heterosexual female friends being all, "BUT EMILYYY!!11! I LUV U!!111ooone" Maybe not quite like that, but something along those lines. And to clarify, I know I don't NEED a guy to love me in order for me to be happy..it's just a nice thing to have, you know? I'm not going to wait around for "him" to come along. I stopped caring a couple months before Joe came along, and then BAM, there he was. Unexpected and completely out of nowhere. That's the best way to find love, I say. Sigh. Oh, it'll come. Love will find me and we'll proceed to scrump like bunnies aaaaall night long. The only time I don't mind not to get any sleep, awthankyou! OH, I'M SO BAD! I'm such a bad girl! I need to be locked in a cage while people poke and prod me with sticks!
::randomly breaks into song::
The suuuun ain't gonna shiiiine anyyymoooore, the moooon ain't gonna riiiise in the skyyyy, teeeears are alwaaaays cloooouding your eyyyyyes, wheeen you're withooooout looooooove!
Fin.