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i thought that i had come over it, that wonbin had left and yeah that i had i accepted it. sure i still have but i just realized that im still heartbroken.
when i got the news that he had quit i cried like many other fans and cried a lot. i didnt want to speak to anyone and my eyes got all swollen up and was just like tired of everything. i couldnt even look at pics that wonbin was in or vids. their music was the only thing that i wanted to hear at that moment, because it was comforting to hear him eventhough i couldnt look at him.
but the thing is that i was like überly depressed that other day at school and didnt talk much or at all, i didnt listen to asian music at all either and yeah the day after i wasnt so much but i still got all emo when i saw him and stuff like that.
i was like that in like hm... one week? something like that and after i didnt get emo whenever i saw him and i had accepted his desicion well i always had but before that it was like `WHY WONBIN WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS?!?!?".
i still dont understand why, why he left. its supposed to be because he wants to play another kind of music and etc. but i dont know if i can believe that. i feel that he didnt want to leave, that he never would have but now he has and i want to know why.
it has been a long time since they announced that he had quit fti but just like 15mins ago i saw his last performance with the group at the japanese fanmeeting. how i wish i could have been there, it would have felt better to see him a last time with fti but now i wont have that chance, ever.
Click to viewi saw another vid before this, where he is reading his goodbye letter and i have read the translation of it before. so before this vid i got a little emotional and teary. i was like already getting depressed T.T
then this vid came and i started to cry a lot like the day he left. and now im feeling depressed aswell.
still im amazed how hongki manges this situation, i would never have thought that he was like the "strong one" in the group and poor jonghoon sobbing like that. all the memember being like this breaks my heart and im a little sad too about minhwan, that he couldnt be there :/
well this vid is really emotional and this is like that last song fti preformances with wonbin so that gets you even more
i hope though that he still has contact with the members and maybe hangs out with them and such and i hope that everything is going great for his comeback, i cant wait to see him sing again. he has an awesome voice<3
until you return