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Life is kind of somber as of late. Maybe it's just a mood swing, or maybe it's the weather. I'm not really sure, but I'm in hyper-introspective mode. Seeing a psychologist will do that to you. On an upside, I finally can talk to someone unabashedly about my life because they aren't a part of it. I just wish I could have done this years ago. I think I would probably be at the same point I am now, but handling it better.
I love college. I love being surrounded by my peers. I love not paying for housing or meals (sometimes) or anything really except booze. I love being in a fraternity. I love being drunk and forgetting what inhibitions are (not that college is really a part of that). I love working for a radio station. I love the idea that you can have freedom in your life.
I hate school. I hate how socially conservative my peers are. I hate feeling like my obligations are bound by my finances. I hate the stigma of fraternities. I hate sometimes having to get drunk to let go of my inhibitions. I hate the fact that this freedom is a sham. I hate the fact that you don't have freedom in college or out.
I don't want a career. It scares the tar off of me. I've said this before, sorry.
Can I have a face-to-face, one-on-one conversation with anyone at this hour sometime? Please?
I don't know how y'all feel, but to me sitting outside at 2 AM is pretty much the most perfect thing ever.
Help.
I love college. I love being surrounded by my peers. I love not paying for housing or meals (sometimes) or anything really except booze. I love being in a fraternity. I love being drunk and forgetting what inhibitions are (not that college is really a part of that). I love working for a radio station. I love the idea that you can have freedom in your life.
I hate school. I hate how socially conservative my peers are. I hate feeling like my obligations are bound by my finances. I hate the stigma of fraternities. I hate sometimes having to get drunk to let go of my inhibitions. I hate the fact that this freedom is a sham. I hate the fact that you don't have freedom in college or out.
I don't want a career. It scares the tar off of me. I've said this before, sorry.
Can I have a face-to-face, one-on-one conversation with anyone at this hour sometime? Please?
I don't know how y'all feel, but to me sitting outside at 2 AM is pretty much the most perfect thing ever.
Help.