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[poebie]

Its so strange.

I forgot what it is to feel.

so much is happening so fast but it still feels like im moving in slow motion. I want to be out there. I want to jump in. I've dipped my toes in but its not enough.
I'm afraid.
so many years of insecurity. disloyalty. abuse. depression. illness. degradation. neglect. anger.

its all going to change.

not going to let you in this time.

let me be for a while