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The internet will never be the same again to me - ever.
Goodness, i can't believe i actually made that last post. I was just asking for drama. i guess it's stupid that i thought i could explain myself to a bunch of very assumptive people. (if assumptive is even a word; i'm not all here today)
Ah well, I got it out of my system. From this point on, I will no longer explain myself to anyone about that issue. I have said what I had to say. That's it.
There have been a few changes though. now i have friends-only comments. I banned a few from commenting. and this will most likely be a friends-only journal from now on. Who knows what the future will bring.
I missed school today. 20 minutes ago I heard my boyfriend's knock at the door but i didn't answer. My head feels like it's stuffed with cotton, and my stomach is, well, not doing so spectacular.
I had another nightmare last night. I ususally have nightmares, consisting of very poignant death, featuring all the gruesome details. I despise gore, but when it's in my dreams, there is no escaping.
To everyone on my friend's list - I am here. Even if I don't say a word to you in comments, I know you are out there and you are in my thoughts.
I thank all of those who were quick to defend me on the issue in that last post. Especially people whom I have never come in contact with before - if you added me I surely did add you back. Although I am a bit wary of who to add, still.
You know, Micky Dolenz has a gorgeous singing voice. at least i think so.
Yesterday at school I freaked out during Lunch. I began to have an anxiety/panic attack. I couldn't stay in one spot for too long, my spoken words sounded fluent yet fumbled together (inter-woven), and anything that was in my hands was quickly destroyed. I threw things, screamed, and even kicked some of my friends and pulled Audrey's hair. I had no clue what was going on with me, but I freaked out.
I've been doing a lot of that lately (mostly at home), but i always use to manage to keep it all inside. lately it's been leaking.
Goodness, i can't believe i actually made that last post. I was just asking for drama. i guess it's stupid that i thought i could explain myself to a bunch of very assumptive people. (if assumptive is even a word; i'm not all here today)
Ah well, I got it out of my system. From this point on, I will no longer explain myself to anyone about that issue. I have said what I had to say. That's it.
There have been a few changes though. now i have friends-only comments. I banned a few from commenting. and this will most likely be a friends-only journal from now on. Who knows what the future will bring.
I missed school today. 20 minutes ago I heard my boyfriend's knock at the door but i didn't answer. My head feels like it's stuffed with cotton, and my stomach is, well, not doing so spectacular.
I had another nightmare last night. I ususally have nightmares, consisting of very poignant death, featuring all the gruesome details. I despise gore, but when it's in my dreams, there is no escaping.
To everyone on my friend's list - I am here. Even if I don't say a word to you in comments, I know you are out there and you are in my thoughts.
I thank all of those who were quick to defend me on the issue in that last post. Especially people whom I have never come in contact with before - if you added me I surely did add you back. Although I am a bit wary of who to add, still.
You know, Micky Dolenz has a gorgeous singing voice. at least i think so.
Yesterday at school I freaked out during Lunch. I began to have an anxiety/panic attack. I couldn't stay in one spot for too long, my spoken words sounded fluent yet fumbled together (inter-woven), and anything that was in my hands was quickly destroyed. I threw things, screamed, and even kicked some of my friends and pulled Audrey's hair. I had no clue what was going on with me, but I freaked out.
I've been doing a lot of that lately (mostly at home), but i always use to manage to keep it all inside. lately it's been leaking.