Walking in the first of March
I walked from my house to the mall this evening. It was refreshing; I'd forgotten how pretty Liberty Park is at night. Makes me wish I lived in New York then I could walk through Central Park at night and maybe pass by Cleopatra's Needle and as a favor of Bast. Anyway, weird how heartbreak puts so many things in perspective. But hey, life is all about the experience and the learning right?
I feel acomplished today, I cleaned my room really really well. I even vacumed under the computer desk. (How in the hell does cat hair get down there?) I put in several more job applications and I got a rejection email from Procter and Gamble. Tomorrow I plan on getting my passport renewed and applying for work visas abroad. Or I could just go to Mexico. I dont know if I need to leave Utah, or the entire US. I've been here in Utah for way to long. I've said from the moment I stepped off the plan (December 29 1995)"I dont belong here." Why am I still here? I think it's just plain good old fashioned stupidity. But who knows, maybe the powers that be want me here for a reason, tho I've yet to figure it out. It seems that the most important messups Ive made have all been made in Utah. I could have lived my life happy without ever seeing snow, or mountains or Temple Square, but I ended up here. I need the OCEAN DAMN IT! Landlocked for ten years. Sacrilige!
Despite that digresion I feel very acomplished today; I read a lot! And I learned how to play an F on the flute. Yay now I know four notes! Maybe soon I will be able to play something I like! Well lets hope tomorrow brings something for me to smile about, or someone.
I feel acomplished today, I cleaned my room really really well. I even vacumed under the computer desk. (How in the hell does cat hair get down there?) I put in several more job applications and I got a rejection email from Procter and Gamble. Tomorrow I plan on getting my passport renewed and applying for work visas abroad. Or I could just go to Mexico. I dont know if I need to leave Utah, or the entire US. I've been here in Utah for way to long. I've said from the moment I stepped off the plan (December 29 1995)"I dont belong here." Why am I still here? I think it's just plain good old fashioned stupidity. But who knows, maybe the powers that be want me here for a reason, tho I've yet to figure it out. It seems that the most important messups Ive made have all been made in Utah. I could have lived my life happy without ever seeing snow, or mountains or Temple Square, but I ended up here. I need the OCEAN DAMN IT! Landlocked for ten years. Sacrilige!
Despite that digresion I feel very acomplished today; I read a lot! And I learned how to play an F on the flute. Yay now I know four notes! Maybe soon I will be able to play something I like! Well lets hope tomorrow brings something for me to smile about, or someone.