SPN 9x10 - Road Trip

[pocochina]

Metatron’s mind games with Gadreel were pitch-perfect. He rides Gadreel about you’re a screw-up, nobody’ll have you but me, you have to fight more and harder and maybe just maybe I’ll give you a way out of this shame spiral which you’re only in because you’re such a failure, have we talked lately about how I’m a saint for not reminding you of that

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[a_white_rain]

I ACTUALLY LOGGED ONTO LJ BC I NEEDS TO TALK.

Like I have nothing to add to your non Dean Sam and Cas related stuff bc I agree and am not honestly invested in the same way. Plots are just there in between characters is how I approach most of my fandoms. But I do love reading your thoughts because they make me think.

First Cas since I haven't talked but have lots of feelings. Part of me wanted him to yell at Dean and cuddle Sam bc everything is so sad. But I want emotional honesty before anything and that's what I got. Cas being gentle with Dean who was willing to kill Sam and clearly not stable and Cas gets Dean well enough to realize yelling at him would be a bad idea. And I kind of think he buys Sam and Dean's true love lie and I can't blame him. I'm trained in psychology and looked away after the soulless beatdown because of the genuine love that is there until I just couldn't anymore how can I expect more from Cas who got his crash course on one version of human culture during the apocalypse?

And even then he was totally uncomfortable with burning off Sam's tattoo and is not in an okay place himself.

I LOVED THE FREAK OUT. THIS ONE ENTITY DESTROYED THE UNIVERSE? It wasn't lucifer, eve and Adam, or even god whose rules were set against everyone? It just goes to show how he's not dealing. Most of his family is dead, they've been in a bloody civil was for years, and his grace was stolen and he's had to murder his own family in order to survive.

Six years ago he was happy just observing humanity. I LIKE MY BENT AND BLOODY ANGEL.

[pocochina]

!!!!! CAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS. YES his freak-out at Gadreel was so perfect and made so much sense. Despising Gadreel is ingrained in him as deeply as, well, as despising the boy with the demon blood was back in S4/5. It's something that he doesn't have to fight against every one of his subconscious beliefs about how the world works, and it makes so much sense for the character to give in to it. That, and the overidentification wrt his own current situation with Metatron, it makes so much sense that he'd lash out that way.

I kind of think he buys Sam and Dean's true love lie and I can't blame him.

Oh, he totally buys it, and it breaks my heart.

[percysowner]

I LOVED THE FREAK OUT. THIS ONE ENTITY DESTROYED THE UNIVERSE? It wasn't lucifer, eve and Adam, or even god whose rules were set against everyone? It just goes to show how he's not dealing. Most of his family is dead, they've been in a bloody civil was for years, and his grace was stolen and he's had to murder his own family in order to survive.

I know. The angels have this really weird view of God. He's the creator of the universe, their father and he is always right. But OTOH, he was so weak that one of his children messing up FORCED him to abandon the family, so to speak. Dean remarking that Castiel is such a child is on many levels part of Dean's need to be superior, but on one level is true of many angels in general. They do think that Daddy wouldn't leave unless someone forced him to, because God is Great, God is good and good fathers only leave for good reasons. So they blame whatever angel they think let Daddy down. Or they try to stop an Apocalypse so that Daddy will see that they all did their homework and did what Dad told them they had to do so he can come home now and they promise they will be good forever and ever. And they treat their designated scapegoats, Lucifer, Gadreel, Abner and who knows what other angels who were imprisoned terribly because they think Dad would want that and will reward them for punishing his "bad" children.

[pocochina]

I've noticed this too. God has to be all-powerful AND morally blameless, and it's a paradox they can't reconcile.