*sigh*
The tone of my LJ has been so somber lately. I suppose it fits.
Six hours of カラオケ (karaoke) today. It cheered me up, but screwed me over for my 文法(grammar) test and 会話の期末試験(final exam in conversation).
I also feel guilty for having feelings of happiness even knowing that Amanda has passed on. I'm sure there will be people who tell me that I shouldn't feel guilty and that Amanda wouldn't want me to put my life on hold for her sake. In response to that, I always want to ask, "how would you know what Amanda thinks?" which is unfair, because those people are only trying to comfort me.
But if I didn't feel guilty, then I'd just hate myself even more.
Six hours of カラオケ (karaoke) today. It cheered me up, but screwed me over for my 文法(grammar) test and 会話の期末試験(final exam in conversation).
I also feel guilty for having feelings of happiness even knowing that Amanda has passed on. I'm sure there will be people who tell me that I shouldn't feel guilty and that Amanda wouldn't want me to put my life on hold for her sake. In response to that, I always want to ask, "how would you know what Amanda thinks?" which is unfair, because those people are only trying to comfort me.
But if I didn't feel guilty, then I'd just hate myself even more.