wheeee....
Uh, wow. I just watched last week's VMars and... this show is KICKING MY ASS again. I really, really enjoyed that episode. Good shit. I hope that means the show is back on it's game.
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In other news, quatredeathlady and Christine came over for dinner. Dinner was good, and then we watched "The Final Sacrifice" and Ju-on, which, thank you, creepy movie, I've always thought of my bed as the one place I was SAFE from creepy ghosts who wanted to kill me. I will be sleeping again, oh, I don't know, NEVER. O_O
Anyway, now I'm here. I should try and get some writing done, as tomorrow is going to be dedicated to sleeping, cleaning, and homework. But then again, maybe instead of writing I'll watch the South Park movie, seeing as how I've got "Uncle Fucker" stuck in my head thanks to the VMars TWoP recap.
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PS: Here is a meme. I was tagged by _morning_glow:
SEVEN SONGS: In your LJ, list seven songs you are into right now; no matter the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good. They must be songs you're really enjoying this week. When you're done, tag seven people on your friends list to see what they're listening to.
one; 10000 Maniacs - These Are The Days
two; Badly Drawn Boy - You Were Right
three; Mike Doughty - I Hear the Bells
four; Delays - Long Time Coming
five; Scott Chasolen (solo) - Near You
six; Lucy Kaplansky - For Once in Your Life
seven; Dire Straits - Sultans of Swing
I tag anyone who wants to share music!
In the same vein, If you pick a number between 1 and 2285, I will send you whatever song that is in my iTunes library.
Also, if any of the above links expire, just tell me and I'll refresh them.
eta: Also, I was driving to SnS today to get stuff for dinner and decided to listen to this playlist I have for writing that's basically all songs that have something to do with Alan and/or Danny. While I was listening to it, it occurred to me that... Danny is the sentimental one. Which, I mean, I guess I sort of knew that, but it was a little surprising to me to just... realize it all of a sudden. Like, Alan can be sappy, but it's not a common thing and he's always really self-deprecating about it. He has boxes of stuff from his time with Danny, but it's mostly because he just... Alan is the type of person who just keeps boxes of stuff because he's a packrat. Even if he and Danny had ended their relationship amicably, he's still have boxes of stuff because that's what he does. He puts things in boxes because maybe he might need them again someday, and then he forgets about them.
Danny, on the otherhand, keeps things because he needs to keep them. He's completely sentimental at heart, totally mushy. He's a big cuddly pushover and he has pictures and mementos carefully packed away because he needs to have them. He needs to have that connection, to be able to look at something and think, 'God, remember that? Remember when we were happy? Remember this part of my life?' As I said to Nicole, Alan keeps crap because he keeps it, Danny is the type of guy who would keep scrapbooks. Like, he hasn't, but if he were reading this right now he'd say, "Wow! Scrapbooks! Dammit, I wish I'd thought of that sooner!"
Danny's the type of person who thinks, "Oh, this is our song" or "I need to do something nice for our anniversary." He spends a lot of time on being romantic because he likes the idea of romance and he likes moments to be beautiful and memorable. Alan likes romance too, but mostly because he likes Danny. He likes doing things for Danny to show him how much he loves him. And while he's occasionally overcome by his emotions and slips into the category of "mushy," it's much less frequently than Danny. I mean, Danny showed up at the school on the third afternoon of their relationship and said, "Is it creepy that I can't stop thinking about you? I don't want it to be creepy, and I hope it's not, but our past two dates have been on my mind all day and I thought maybe I would stop by and see you again, and then maybe I could stop thinking about you. Or you could come home with me and I can keep thinking about you. It's up to you."
And Alan was flattered and flummoxed and had been thinking the same sort of things, but the idea of Danny just showing up after work, sitting on his car in the parking lot was the type of thing he'd never expect. To Danny, it seemed like the obvious thing to do.
I don't know if this is making much sense, but it's a very distinct difference in the way that they look at things that hit me so suddenly that I wanted to document it. It kind of throws an interesting spin on the entire break up, because it becomes apparent, with this information, that Danny sees the break up as a romantic failing on Alan's part and a failing as a person on his own part. He blames Alan, at first, for refusing to come with him, for not doing the thing that Danny feels is obvious - giving up everything to be with the person he loves. It doesn't even occur to him that he's breaking the same rule that Alan is until later. He just looks back on all he's done for Alan, all he's sacrificed and all the plans he's made to make him happy and feels like he deserves at least this much. He feels badly, he feels like he's ruining his own life at the same time by taking the job, but to him it's fate, at first. Only later does he start to think that maybe this wasn't the right decision and maybe he should have done something to make it right. Only after Alan starts to turn into a zombie and spends all his free time moping and crying does Danny truly realize what he's done. He feels like a heel for breaking Alan's heart, especially after promising him over and over again in his soppy, loving state that he'd never, ever hurt him.
Still, he doesn't realize that HE could have done the noble thing and stayed behind until he gets to California. He's miserable, depressed, nearly suicidal, on medication, in therapy, and not in control of his own life anymore because all he can think of is the happiness that he gave up. When he hears from Cynthia how miserable Alan is, it's the final nail in the coffin. He goes from blaming Alan to blaming himself for being so blinded by fear that he couldn't make what should have been the easiest decision of his life.
Anyway. Yeah. That, clearly, is what leads to the start of Danny's current quest. But I'm getting a head of myself. I haven't even written all of the break-up yet XD
PS: All of those songs with the exception of Dire Straits are from the aforementioned playlist.
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In other news, quatredeathlady and Christine came over for dinner. Dinner was good, and then we watched "The Final Sacrifice" and Ju-on, which, thank you, creepy movie, I've always thought of my bed as the one place I was SAFE from creepy ghosts who wanted to kill me. I will be sleeping again, oh, I don't know, NEVER. O_O
Anyway, now I'm here. I should try and get some writing done, as tomorrow is going to be dedicated to sleeping, cleaning, and homework. But then again, maybe instead of writing I'll watch the South Park movie, seeing as how I've got "Uncle Fucker" stuck in my head thanks to the VMars TWoP recap.
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PS: Here is a meme. I was tagged by _morning_glow:
SEVEN SONGS: In your LJ, list seven songs you are into right now; no matter the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good. They must be songs you're really enjoying this week. When you're done, tag seven people on your friends list to see what they're listening to.
one; 10000 Maniacs - These Are The Days
two; Badly Drawn Boy - You Were Right
three; Mike Doughty - I Hear the Bells
four; Delays - Long Time Coming
five; Scott Chasolen (solo) - Near You
six; Lucy Kaplansky - For Once in Your Life
seven; Dire Straits - Sultans of Swing
I tag anyone who wants to share music!
In the same vein, If you pick a number between 1 and 2285, I will send you whatever song that is in my iTunes library.
Also, if any of the above links expire, just tell me and I'll refresh them.
eta: Also, I was driving to SnS today to get stuff for dinner and decided to listen to this playlist I have for writing that's basically all songs that have something to do with Alan and/or Danny. While I was listening to it, it occurred to me that... Danny is the sentimental one. Which, I mean, I guess I sort of knew that, but it was a little surprising to me to just... realize it all of a sudden. Like, Alan can be sappy, but it's not a common thing and he's always really self-deprecating about it. He has boxes of stuff from his time with Danny, but it's mostly because he just... Alan is the type of person who just keeps boxes of stuff because he's a packrat. Even if he and Danny had ended their relationship amicably, he's still have boxes of stuff because that's what he does. He puts things in boxes because maybe he might need them again someday, and then he forgets about them.
Danny, on the otherhand, keeps things because he needs to keep them. He's completely sentimental at heart, totally mushy. He's a big cuddly pushover and he has pictures and mementos carefully packed away because he needs to have them. He needs to have that connection, to be able to look at something and think, 'God, remember that? Remember when we were happy? Remember this part of my life?' As I said to Nicole, Alan keeps crap because he keeps it, Danny is the type of guy who would keep scrapbooks. Like, he hasn't, but if he were reading this right now he'd say, "Wow! Scrapbooks! Dammit, I wish I'd thought of that sooner!"
Danny's the type of person who thinks, "Oh, this is our song" or "I need to do something nice for our anniversary." He spends a lot of time on being romantic because he likes the idea of romance and he likes moments to be beautiful and memorable. Alan likes romance too, but mostly because he likes Danny. He likes doing things for Danny to show him how much he loves him. And while he's occasionally overcome by his emotions and slips into the category of "mushy," it's much less frequently than Danny. I mean, Danny showed up at the school on the third afternoon of their relationship and said, "Is it creepy that I can't stop thinking about you? I don't want it to be creepy, and I hope it's not, but our past two dates have been on my mind all day and I thought maybe I would stop by and see you again, and then maybe I could stop thinking about you. Or you could come home with me and I can keep thinking about you. It's up to you."
And Alan was flattered and flummoxed and had been thinking the same sort of things, but the idea of Danny just showing up after work, sitting on his car in the parking lot was the type of thing he'd never expect. To Danny, it seemed like the obvious thing to do.
I don't know if this is making much sense, but it's a very distinct difference in the way that they look at things that hit me so suddenly that I wanted to document it. It kind of throws an interesting spin on the entire break up, because it becomes apparent, with this information, that Danny sees the break up as a romantic failing on Alan's part and a failing as a person on his own part. He blames Alan, at first, for refusing to come with him, for not doing the thing that Danny feels is obvious - giving up everything to be with the person he loves. It doesn't even occur to him that he's breaking the same rule that Alan is until later. He just looks back on all he's done for Alan, all he's sacrificed and all the plans he's made to make him happy and feels like he deserves at least this much. He feels badly, he feels like he's ruining his own life at the same time by taking the job, but to him it's fate, at first. Only later does he start to think that maybe this wasn't the right decision and maybe he should have done something to make it right. Only after Alan starts to turn into a zombie and spends all his free time moping and crying does Danny truly realize what he's done. He feels like a heel for breaking Alan's heart, especially after promising him over and over again in his soppy, loving state that he'd never, ever hurt him.
Still, he doesn't realize that HE could have done the noble thing and stayed behind until he gets to California. He's miserable, depressed, nearly suicidal, on medication, in therapy, and not in control of his own life anymore because all he can think of is the happiness that he gave up. When he hears from Cynthia how miserable Alan is, it's the final nail in the coffin. He goes from blaming Alan to blaming himself for being so blinded by fear that he couldn't make what should have been the easiest decision of his life.
Anyway. Yeah. That, clearly, is what leads to the start of Danny's current quest. But I'm getting a head of myself. I haven't even written all of the break-up yet XD
PS: All of those songs with the exception of Dire Straits are from the aforementioned playlist.