Pre-Birthday wishes
Well, despite my birthday being in six days, I'm feeling pretty awful.
I made a friend mad at me today, and though I think the reason was kind of trivial, I do feel horrible about it. I didn't mean to make her upset; I was only being truthful, just as she or any of my friends would do for me.
But, I suppose everything will work out.
It better. I hate having people angry with me. I'm just that sensitive and pathetic.
Anyway, I realize there are somethings that I actually do want for my birthday, but I don't think I'll have any means of getting them.
So, I will compose a 'dream list' of items that I pray to every deity for.
1)A luncheon with my new friends and family (Ashley, Amanda, Amy, Kristen, parents, and in a perfect world, Psycho Mike *swoon*)
2)To be healthy for at least a full month.
3)Bleach: Heat the Soul 2 for PSP
4)PSP Memory Stick PRO Duo 1 GB
5)Pocky. Lots and Lots of Pocky.
6)A statue made in my honor with me riding a horse...NO! A motorcycle!
7)A monkey.
8)V in an apron and his mask. And I mean wearing NOTHING but an apron and his mask. Showing off all the burns and all.
9)Street Fighter Alpha: Generations DVD
10)Red vs Blue T-shirts ("I like me."; "I hate babies."; "Cockbite."))
11)Red vs Blue Season 4 DVD
12)A call from the relatives and friends from NYC, New Jersey, and all over the place.
This is by no means a list I expect anyone to get me stuff from. I don't want anyone to get me anything. Just your love and support are truly the best gifts anyone could give me.
I'm still pretty bummed that this will be my first birthday without my parents around. That makes me seem like such a spoiled ass. I can't help it, though. I've always been sheltered and by their side, and now, I feel kind of...lost? I'm not sure how to describe it.
Well, I'm going to lay down and try to sleep off this terrible feeling of guilt and depression.
By the way...
I really hate sunny days. Not just because of the sun.
Because everything bad that has happened to me usually occurs on a sunny, 'beautiful' day.
Like a curse.
I made a friend mad at me today, and though I think the reason was kind of trivial, I do feel horrible about it. I didn't mean to make her upset; I was only being truthful, just as she or any of my friends would do for me.
But, I suppose everything will work out.
It better. I hate having people angry with me. I'm just that sensitive and pathetic.
Anyway, I realize there are somethings that I actually do want for my birthday, but I don't think I'll have any means of getting them.
So, I will compose a 'dream list' of items that I pray to every deity for.
1)A luncheon with my new friends and family (Ashley, Amanda, Amy, Kristen, parents, and in a perfect world, Psycho Mike *swoon*)
2)To be healthy for at least a full month.
3)Bleach: Heat the Soul 2 for PSP
4)PSP Memory Stick PRO Duo 1 GB
5)Pocky. Lots and Lots of Pocky.
6)A statue made in my honor with me riding a horse...NO! A motorcycle!
7)A monkey.
8)V in an apron and his mask. And I mean wearing NOTHING but an apron and his mask. Showing off all the burns and all.
9)Street Fighter Alpha: Generations DVD
10)Red vs Blue T-shirts ("I like me."; "I hate babies."; "Cockbite."))
11)Red vs Blue Season 4 DVD
12)A call from the relatives and friends from NYC, New Jersey, and all over the place.
This is by no means a list I expect anyone to get me stuff from. I don't want anyone to get me anything. Just your love and support are truly the best gifts anyone could give me.
I'm still pretty bummed that this will be my first birthday without my parents around. That makes me seem like such a spoiled ass. I can't help it, though. I've always been sheltered and by their side, and now, I feel kind of...lost? I'm not sure how to describe it.
Well, I'm going to lay down and try to sleep off this terrible feeling of guilt and depression.
By the way...
I really hate sunny days. Not just because of the sun.
Because everything bad that has happened to me usually occurs on a sunny, 'beautiful' day.
Like a curse.