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I feel out of control and unable to function ... isn't that wonderful ... doing fine for years then get knocked up and postpartum depression gets me. I want to scream that it isn't fair!!!! But, who would care if it was fair or not.
I guess I could go into specifics of the drama but it wouldn't do any good to dwell on it all. Besides my thoughts are so scattered I'm not sure I could explain it in a way that anyone else could understand. Its all one big mess here, a mess that I am unsure I can clean up.
People say to reach out, don't isolate, make sure others know your having a rough time but in all honesty who would care that could help. I have isolated myself all my life, sure I have some that would read this and say wow what can I do to help but at the end of the day I wouldn't let them go out of their way to do anything.
These poor children. I have brought two children into the world and now I feel like I am unable to do anything toward raising them .. this sucks so bad to feel so unable to function in a way that I should be able to do...
hopefully this too shall pass
I guess I could go into specifics of the drama but it wouldn't do any good to dwell on it all. Besides my thoughts are so scattered I'm not sure I could explain it in a way that anyone else could understand. Its all one big mess here, a mess that I am unsure I can clean up.
People say to reach out, don't isolate, make sure others know your having a rough time but in all honesty who would care that could help. I have isolated myself all my life, sure I have some that would read this and say wow what can I do to help but at the end of the day I wouldn't let them go out of their way to do anything.
These poor children. I have brought two children into the world and now I feel like I am unable to do anything toward raising them .. this sucks so bad to feel so unable to function in a way that I should be able to do...
hopefully this too shall pass