I Said HEY
I had a bad trip on shrooms. But i wrote this:
I think he wanted everything to be okay
And when I push away
It’s not because I’m a loner
But an observer
So don’t get offended
Because you’re my favorite
Unfortunately, due to this job
Not given to me by god
But by my inner soul
Has forced me to push everything out
And away
So I can write about it
In words that will only cheapen how I feel
You see, it’s this never ending cycle
And it’s so self destructive
But like something I can’t put down
I can’t put this away
I like this fire
It burns so badly that it heals
Those wounds…they’re sealed up again
And I want those wounds to cover my body
and this is all myself
no one will ever know…just question
and make me cover myself
I’m so ashamed because everyone is telling me to be
With their eyes
Not dirty ashamed
But deafening
Everything I’m saying without speaking is being so covered up
By their “what the….”s and “no don’t!!!”
And line by line they’ll think they understand
As if there is much!
Oh, for everything there is there is nothing
But me
And when it all comes down to it
It’s just me and this feeling I get
Of remembering what it felt like to be ashamed
Because once you have been made ashamed
It doesn’t leave you…ever
I feel like I am typing to the rhythm of Molly’s words
And her heart
Oh god, her heart
I put mine to rest
He never had a chance
And It’s awful
I’m “sad” and “upset”
Empty and timeless
Forever
and of course:
I can’t live right now
It’s not right
It’s not the right time
Tick
Tock
Im dead
And you’re still alive
My roommate started to have a bad trip and i just followed. Around midnight i was sitting outside my room waiting for Nick to get the keys from upstairs and just as i notice Donkey Kong staring at me through the floor the fire alarms go off and everyone is pushed out into the pouring rain and crazy wind. Nick found me and covered me with his bathrobe and we just stood there smoking our cloves, marveling in what looked like the end of the world. I was so content for some one so unattached from everything. Next time perhaps i will hallucinate for. I mean, that's why i did them in the first place and all i saw was a monkey in the pattern in the carpets. Go figure.
I think he wanted everything to be okay
And when I push away
It’s not because I’m a loner
But an observer
So don’t get offended
Because you’re my favorite
Unfortunately, due to this job
Not given to me by god
But by my inner soul
Has forced me to push everything out
And away
So I can write about it
In words that will only cheapen how I feel
You see, it’s this never ending cycle
And it’s so self destructive
But like something I can’t put down
I can’t put this away
I like this fire
It burns so badly that it heals
Those wounds…they’re sealed up again
And I want those wounds to cover my body
and this is all myself
no one will ever know…just question
and make me cover myself
I’m so ashamed because everyone is telling me to be
With their eyes
Not dirty ashamed
But deafening
Everything I’m saying without speaking is being so covered up
By their “what the….”s and “no don’t!!!”
And line by line they’ll think they understand
As if there is much!
Oh, for everything there is there is nothing
But me
And when it all comes down to it
It’s just me and this feeling I get
Of remembering what it felt like to be ashamed
Because once you have been made ashamed
It doesn’t leave you…ever
I feel like I am typing to the rhythm of Molly’s words
And her heart
Oh god, her heart
I put mine to rest
He never had a chance
And It’s awful
I’m “sad” and “upset”
Empty and timeless
Forever
and of course:
I can’t live right now
It’s not right
It’s not the right time
Tick
Tock
Im dead
And you’re still alive
My roommate started to have a bad trip and i just followed. Around midnight i was sitting outside my room waiting for Nick to get the keys from upstairs and just as i notice Donkey Kong staring at me through the floor the fire alarms go off and everyone is pushed out into the pouring rain and crazy wind. Nick found me and covered me with his bathrobe and we just stood there smoking our cloves, marveling in what looked like the end of the world. I was so content for some one so unattached from everything. Next time perhaps i will hallucinate for. I mean, that's why i did them in the first place and all i saw was a monkey in the pattern in the carpets. Go figure.