i am sappy
so i snuck a peak today. first time in months.
blame it on pink floyd
i read the last entry. that one from january.
i dont expect you to read this but i feel i have to put it on a source accessible to you.
im so proud. im so happy for you.
im actually unselfishly happy for you for once. i have no gain in this and yet still, it makes me smile.
i don't miss you. i don't miss us. but sometimes i wish i could crawl into a foreign body, one you wouldn't recognize, and see who you are now. bc you will never show your public side to me nor your private anymore so what is the point of us ever meeting again?
but then again, who knows? maybe once this is all a memory so distant it feels almost vicarious we'll be able to sit down for some coffee and have an actual conversation.
i dont expect you to read this but it feels good knowing there's a chance you might.
blame it on pink floyd
i read the last entry. that one from january.
i dont expect you to read this but i feel i have to put it on a source accessible to you.
im so proud. im so happy for you.
im actually unselfishly happy for you for once. i have no gain in this and yet still, it makes me smile.
i don't miss you. i don't miss us. but sometimes i wish i could crawl into a foreign body, one you wouldn't recognize, and see who you are now. bc you will never show your public side to me nor your private anymore so what is the point of us ever meeting again?
but then again, who knows? maybe once this is all a memory so distant it feels almost vicarious we'll be able to sit down for some coffee and have an actual conversation.
i dont expect you to read this but it feels good knowing there's a chance you might.