holy crap
I haven't felt this bad in months, perhaps not even in the past year or more. i haven't been regular with my medicine, but i don't really think that's the issue.
i think it started on friday...did you see the shit in NJ -- the guy who found the kids in the trunk of his car....i could not be more repulsed that i live in a world where they broadcast a man's complete grief and horror on national tv. fucking disgusting. there aren't even words for it.
i realized yesterday morning that i don't think i have anything to look forward to. what is there? paint a few pictures? i don't want children anymore because i don't want the responsibility of bringing someone else into a world which i personally find offensive 80% of the time.
again, i feel companionless.
yeah, suck it up, but i just can't shake it off. i feel only doom. i probably just miss my mom. she moved, and now i have no one to talk to. i don't know.
i think it started on friday...did you see the shit in NJ -- the guy who found the kids in the trunk of his car....i could not be more repulsed that i live in a world where they broadcast a man's complete grief and horror on national tv. fucking disgusting. there aren't even words for it.
i realized yesterday morning that i don't think i have anything to look forward to. what is there? paint a few pictures? i don't want children anymore because i don't want the responsibility of bringing someone else into a world which i personally find offensive 80% of the time.
again, i feel companionless.
yeah, suck it up, but i just can't shake it off. i feel only doom. i probably just miss my mom. she moved, and now i have no one to talk to. i don't know.