how could bad things happen to happy people?
i got so tired of writting in this thing that i almost forgot what the point of it really was.i just dont care anymore i have nothing to lose all to gain right? bullshit.
i wish people would stop quoting famous shit that doesnt make you feel better in the end. You know what you lost and what it was worth. The future is always brighter but it can rain for months and i wear easily under the rain. I dont understand how i let things become this way. I just dont get it if life is all planned out then why would i let myself do this. i also dont understand why i feel like im out on a lot informatiion if i gave this to myself then why do i always feel like i knew what i was going to do and what was going to happen. lost and completely found. a good wake up call .i just still dont get it. i should have never given myself anything. i feel like ending my life to let all this go. i just dont get why i would do that but still i can help but feel like maybe its the right thing to do. i never planned to live this long anyway. i understood the older i got the nastier the mess. i just wish i could be 16 and would have looked up for just one second. i could have had it all. maybe it would be my smell she would miss. but i guess not. its something funny about when your down you know how to get up but i cant help but wonder how did i fall in the beginning. just rememeber me as i was .not as i should have been. plus i smell good too. i know im a good kisser for whatever that is worth. maybe ill get my fill of things one day. just hope i can make till tomorroww with another thought of emptry sorrow. i cant shed another tear.
i wish people would stop quoting famous shit that doesnt make you feel better in the end. You know what you lost and what it was worth. The future is always brighter but it can rain for months and i wear easily under the rain. I dont understand how i let things become this way. I just dont get it if life is all planned out then why would i let myself do this. i also dont understand why i feel like im out on a lot informatiion if i gave this to myself then why do i always feel like i knew what i was going to do and what was going to happen. lost and completely found. a good wake up call .i just still dont get it. i should have never given myself anything. i feel like ending my life to let all this go. i just dont get why i would do that but still i can help but feel like maybe its the right thing to do. i never planned to live this long anyway. i understood the older i got the nastier the mess. i just wish i could be 16 and would have looked up for just one second. i could have had it all. maybe it would be my smell she would miss. but i guess not. its something funny about when your down you know how to get up but i cant help but wonder how did i fall in the beginning. just rememeber me as i was .not as i should have been. plus i smell good too. i know im a good kisser for whatever that is worth. maybe ill get my fill of things one day. just hope i can make till tomorroww with another thought of emptry sorrow. i cant shed another tear.