Life can be boring until you least except it.
-Well alot has been happening in last month or so with everything in my life. The one thing I hate most is CHANGE..especially if its bad. If you guys didnt know already my parents are getting a divorce. Not a big shocker since they fight all the time and since they have been very distant. The worst thing is that the household has become a hell hole. Lets see where to begin..My mom told us that she has been seeing our neighbor since last year. My parents arent even divorsed yet and they already bought a house and everything. My mom told us she didnt want kids because "Ken"(our neighbor) doesnt want any. His loss I suppose. So me and my bro shall stay with my wicked awesome dad. Not to mention "Ken" is a married man. There are alot of things that bother me about this whole thing: She lied to us all this time..being sneaky about it..but my parents act like me and my brother are 5..that we didnt see all these signs of an affair before..My mom is a liar, but a bad one at that..She's bad at hiding things, and sometimes I just want to laugh. All this sucks because its like my mom is leaving us because her life sucked with us. She wants to start over and thats fine, but she acts like she doesnt even care about us anymore. Ever since I was a youngster..lol..I always felt like my mom was with us because she had to be, not because she wanted to be with us. I am proven right yet again. I went to her house over the weekend. She was so excited about it. Why couldnt she have been excited about the house that WE bought together as a family. In the car ride over to Milton..my mom kept saying "He's such a nice guy," and "See, he's a nice guy and sweet." Yeah..so was my dad, or have you forgotton already. My dad would have done anything for my mom..anything! My dad supported my mom for 25 years. Now shes pissed cause my dad wont give her all his money..WTF!!! Shes the one leaving. She also wanted my dad to leave all his life insurance in her name..but my dad's not stupid..lol..Anyways...I'm so stressed out
-and to top it off..I found out that one of my friends sort of likes me...I dont know what to do..because I dont like him like that at all..He's a great guy and I love hanging out with him..Plus I just dont feel like being in a relationship or taking our friendship further than it already is..I agreed to go on a date with him this weekend..but I'm gonna have to cancel it cause Anthony's b-day hanging out thing and the whole play/party thing. I feel bad about saying yes to him, cause now that I'm thinking about it more..I really feel uncomfortable about the whole thing..like I'm being "backed into a corner." This would be the first actually date I've ever been on and I just imagined it would be someone who I really liked as sort of a boyfriend type of thing. Shoot..now its gonna be all awkward and stuff hanging out with him..i dont want that to happen..Should I tell him that going out with him on this so called date makes me uncomfortable or should I go through with it just to see what happens...I dont know..Please help me..I'm stuck in a hole and I cant seem to have anything in my life go right anymore. Everything is soo screwed up..I wish I could just take a nice vacation away just by myself..I havent had a day to myself in years...O well..Too much stuff for one entry...I'm gonna go now..and try to figure out what the hell I'm gonna do..
-and to top it off..I found out that one of my friends sort of likes me...I dont know what to do..because I dont like him like that at all..He's a great guy and I love hanging out with him..Plus I just dont feel like being in a relationship or taking our friendship further than it already is..I agreed to go on a date with him this weekend..but I'm gonna have to cancel it cause Anthony's b-day hanging out thing and the whole play/party thing. I feel bad about saying yes to him, cause now that I'm thinking about it more..I really feel uncomfortable about the whole thing..like I'm being "backed into a corner." This would be the first actually date I've ever been on and I just imagined it would be someone who I really liked as sort of a boyfriend type of thing. Shoot..now its gonna be all awkward and stuff hanging out with him..i dont want that to happen..Should I tell him that going out with him on this so called date makes me uncomfortable or should I go through with it just to see what happens...I dont know..Please help me..I'm stuck in a hole and I cant seem to have anything in my life go right anymore. Everything is soo screwed up..I wish I could just take a nice vacation away just by myself..I havent had a day to myself in years...O well..Too much stuff for one entry...I'm gonna go now..and try to figure out what the hell I'm gonna do..