Achoo.
Hey,
So it has come to my attention that..uhh..I dunno. I just felt like saying that. Today was an okay day, it wasn't that great. But I'm going out with Kay for a little today till around 6 or 7 or something like that. So if anyone wants to do anything after, get at my cellular. Hopefully, going out with Kayla will take my mind off of things, but I doubt that it will, but it's ok.
So today, I was at lunch with Kayla and Jarrid, and Ms. Tess comes up to me and says, "How are you today?" I said, "I'm fine." So she says, "No, really, how are you today?" I then said, "I Am Fine." But I said it very firmly, I wanted to scream at her, is it seriously needed to single me out in front of everyone and ask me how I'm feeling? And this is not as in just making conversation, it's more like a ..I think you're depressed/suicidal tell me how you're feeling today thing. AHHHHH. I hate this. I think I want to visit Brenten tonight, maybe I will. I miss him, we don't work together anymore, and I miss talking to him. He's like one of the only people that understands how I feel. Him and shawn are supposedly going to ask Deb about getting me a job there, hopefully she'll hire me. After all, I am a good worker, I do everything I'm told and I actually do my job. I'm sure that they'll put in a good word for me. I feel so shitty today. I don't want to feel like this anymore, my mom is starting to ask me questions now. I want everyone to leave me alone and just let me sulk in silence. Grr.
I have SAT's tomorrow morning, yay. I'm not prepared at all for them. Well maybe I am for the verbal part, but definitely not for the math part, I haven't even looked at math since last year. I'm such a failure. But I'm going to go in there and try to keep a positive attitude so maybe it'll make a difference. Grr. I wish I was smart.
Well I'm off to clean the black hole...
Later Love*
~*~Ky~*~
So it has come to my attention that..uhh..I dunno. I just felt like saying that. Today was an okay day, it wasn't that great. But I'm going out with Kay for a little today till around 6 or 7 or something like that. So if anyone wants to do anything after, get at my cellular. Hopefully, going out with Kayla will take my mind off of things, but I doubt that it will, but it's ok.
So today, I was at lunch with Kayla and Jarrid, and Ms. Tess comes up to me and says, "How are you today?" I said, "I'm fine." So she says, "No, really, how are you today?" I then said, "I Am Fine." But I said it very firmly, I wanted to scream at her, is it seriously needed to single me out in front of everyone and ask me how I'm feeling? And this is not as in just making conversation, it's more like a ..I think you're depressed/suicidal tell me how you're feeling today thing. AHHHHH. I hate this. I think I want to visit Brenten tonight, maybe I will. I miss him, we don't work together anymore, and I miss talking to him. He's like one of the only people that understands how I feel. Him and shawn are supposedly going to ask Deb about getting me a job there, hopefully she'll hire me. After all, I am a good worker, I do everything I'm told and I actually do my job. I'm sure that they'll put in a good word for me. I feel so shitty today. I don't want to feel like this anymore, my mom is starting to ask me questions now. I want everyone to leave me alone and just let me sulk in silence. Grr.
I have SAT's tomorrow morning, yay. I'm not prepared at all for them. Well maybe I am for the verbal part, but definitely not for the math part, I haven't even looked at math since last year. I'm such a failure. But I'm going to go in there and try to keep a positive attitude so maybe it'll make a difference. Grr. I wish I was smart.
Well I'm off to clean the black hole...
Later Love*
~*~Ky~*~