Apr 27, 2007 17:49
free-writing exercise
a list of what i like/what makes me happy:
edited 08.20.08
getting it all out there
a great melody
a great movie ending
the idea of romance
dancing in my room (in heels, in my underwear, freely)
laughing until i can't breathe at something ridiculously unfunny to others
singing off key
making people happy
catwalking
the balcony
sleeping
lying in bed and thinking
teddy arthur mcbear
taking the day off
being good with dates
facials
makeup (MAC especially!)
being complimented on my makeup
pedicures
pampering
intelligence
making and drinking smoothies
being gentle with things
annoying others that have been mean to me
sticking up for my friends
small gestures of kindness
making myself smile while i cry
laughing after i cry
youtube
free things
wishing i lived in the 60's
someone knowing what im thinking without me having to say a thing
the sound of rain hitting a window
proving me wrong in a good way
being satisfied with what i write
closing my eyes and flaring my arms
making my mom laugh
thinking about the future i want (and will have)
a good ringtone
freddie mercury's entire being
doing something really gross when i'm alone, and laughing about it to myself
planting a new flower
electronica
church
finding money
walking barefoot in the rain
the way my hair feels, even when it's nappy or needs to be washed
being comfortable with being close to someone
sincere compliments
looking at guys' crotches when they're not looking
not caring
being accepted for being myself
the possibility of being completely happy without any qualms or interference
getting a deep pimple out of my skin
chewing on broken fingernails
the way my legs feel right after they've been naired
how good my tits could look when i have on just the right top with just the right bra
thinking i've hidden my curves
finding something on tv i would never have thought to watch before and enjoying it
the way bath and body works candles make my room feel
being clever
correcting bad grammar
being jealous to the point where i want to make myself better
making everything a competition
being vulgar
being okay with dancing by myself in a crowd
the way braids feel
huge hoop earrings
listening to a song on an acoustic guitar, and then imagining a boy playing it for me
when a gay man is saucy, brandon and darrin in particular
brandon in general, and having serious talks with him
thinking about how good it would be to own a tambourine and maracas
sitting outside with a cigarette and a thunderstorm
trying to feel the wind against every hair on my body
telling my friends positive things about them and meaning it whole-heartedly, even if they dont believe it
discovering new music
feeling sexy
singing oldies music at the top of my lungs in my room
queen's "radio ga ga" live aid performance
"girl, interrupted", even when i'm sad
reminiscing (in particular with crystal, yessika, and lauren)
queen elizabeth i
thinking i was someone famous or a princess or a gay man in a past life, since it would explain so much
thinking about the days my mom won't have to work so hard anymore
thinking about the time my brother and i could be friends instead of just brother and sister
movie commentaries
how the shins make me think about happy memories of freshman year
trying not to fall off the balcony as i reach for rain falling off the roof
learning something new
the way my glasses make me look smart
having imaginary crushes
brooklyn, new york
accomplishing something
getting an internship
knowing that people actually like my writing
calling sufjan stevens "soupjohn steevo"
never remembering a name, and thus making up a new one
remembering small details of long ago (even though i forget what i said five minutes ago)
indie music
people who are comfortable within themselves
fat women who carry their weight well
girls who are uniquely pretty
guys who are unconventionally hot
chubby guys with chubby cheeks and nice lips
tall guys with a swimmer's built
snail sex
desserts
chocolate
seeing people in love
watching fat people dance well
laughing at white girls that can't dance at all
hanai mori butterfly perfume
knowing that i am and will always be prettier than gidget
8-9am when i'm alone in the office
when i ride the golf cart and think about nothing
smoking
how nothing can compare to a bali hai
when i love my mom so much, i start to cry
thinking of nice things to do for people, even if i dont follow through
being creative
being artistic
not being told what to do
being mean when its appropriate without any apologies
believing in myself
sleeping naked
walking around the apartment in heels, shorts, and a halter top
relieving myself
that feeling i get after finally taking a shower
being nosy when i see the police
being trusted
giving a massage
getting a massage
knowing more than someone who thinks they know everything
being humble
being loud
being quiet
being in a club
being alone
being satisfyingly obnoxious
being understood
a great soundtrack/mix
giggling
say something that only i can hear and understand
centaur font
my writing notebooks
having strokes... of genius!
uncovering something wonderful i forgot i had written/done
being remembered
a man's sexy singing voice
being fascinated by the obscure
making someone feel better about their self
talent
being silly
being random
being spontaneous
making up songs
having great movie ideas
imitating someone
flirting
pretty eyes
smelling good
an infectious laugh
appreciating the little things
clean bathrooms
rooms that i can think in
curly hair
making lists
meeting new people
stalking/spying
funny comments on ontd
wasting time, but with something that was worth it
having fun with friends
thinking about how awesome my friends are, even when i hate them
being over something and meaning it
silly words like "superfluous" and "foible" and "chotsky"
not running out of things to say
decorating
being glad i didnt throw something away
making a mess, and then whining about how much i dont want to clean it
cooking for others
my black jackets
paintings
making friends
dresses
getting away with something
surprises
presents
having a good surprise for someone
cool icons and layouts
crystal when she's hilarious, and more like me than she thinks
kathy playing the guitar
lauren standing up for herself
yessika being my idol
tonya genuinely caring about someone/something
darrin making sure people are happy, and being an old-fashioned romantic
jose when he's nice (which is a majority of the time)
having an awesome away message
singing at the top of my lungs in a car with the music up
things being in order
the sims
successfully making a dollar stretch
the colors blue, yellow, orange, green, and purple
colorful things
funky things
open gays
drag queens
gay porn
bears
sitting in the passenger seat and smiling at other motorists
screaming bad things out the window
the way a cigarette makes me feel after i havent had one in a long time
taking a good picture
knowing movie lines by heart
dvds
cute kids
smiling and laughing babies
getting completely naked the second i close my door, and staying that way until i have to leave or someone comes over
doing my eyeshadow well
the way the morning smells
4-6 pm in the winter, 5-7 pm in the summer
full moons
believing in magic
dancing when im drunk
being a successful procrastinator
my handwriting
having espn
getting a deal or bargain
cursing
getting my back scratched
the breakdown of songs
using a british accent
pretending im someone else
digging my nail into the paper seal around a bottle cap, and going all the way around it in a perfect circle
awesome quotes
impressing myself
proving someone wrong
being right
last.fm
making someone comfortable around me
offering someone something and having them take it
the trinity: edgar wright, nick frost, and simon pegg
afros
the way my eyes look when i pull my hair back
making weird noises and faces
eyeliner
my sunglasses
believing that my shades are really my invisibility cloak
grooving
finding out that i'm smiling
being completely done with something, but still going back to look at it over and over
when people are on time
getting lost, but finding my way
scratching the inside of my ear with a hair pin
typing fast without looking, without error
remembering an idea i thought i'd forget
giving good advice/pep-talks
things that are delightfully tacky
laugh attacks
scaring people
dancing in the car
collages
painting
memes
finding food
going out for coffee
i-bar
making it under the wire
trying to flirt with older men
what i like to call "sad eyes"
Gale Harold, or any guy who resembles him (see: two of my previous crushes)
spanking people
daydreaming
praying
having my prayers answered
clarity
the way my hair makes me feel when it's clean and styled right
my room when it's clean
deep-sea creatures (the kinds with lights on their heads)
pizza with lots of pepper
spicy food
food when it's piping hot
summer rolls
saying "fuck it" to chopsticks, and just using my hands
going on late-night food runs
volunteering
eating desserts on my bed
halter tops flattering my broad shoulders
when my friends are encouraging
when my friends have accomplishments
when sad songs somehow make me happy
lounge music
writing something kick-ass on the spot, thus proving how awesome it is to be a creative writer
haters (because i know they're thinking about me when i dont give a fuck about them)
being terrified of a country western bar when i get there, but ending up having a blast
knowing one day i'll make the world a better place
being a college graduate
random facts
the love of god
freedom
make this kind of list for yourself.
i think it'll make you feel great afterwards.
you may even have to keep adding things.
it might take a while though.
if it doesnt, then you need to work some things out with yourself.
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